when speaking with any of them, they will persecute me for any honesty. the only thing to do with what is suppressed is write about it, and then everyone can work together to target me for my writings. in fact, everyone is continually reversing roles between good cops and bad cops, devil's advocates and actual devil's advocates, and have been doing this in all my interactions with them for many years, and every time there is a switch they'll try to make me think I've done something to deserve it or that they've found something out about me suddenly. just keep symmetrically switching attitudes towards me without explanations everywhere I go. moreover, I am shunned and not able to make a living, and the private sector will continually make excuses for the public and subject me to the standards of some other society, while the public sector will ensure that I remain financially dependent on the private sector. and they also ensure that I find it very excruciating to go anywhere in society, because my thoughts are policed by the nazis by means of torture everywhere I go, as well as every other detail of my life which they police as a society. and then they use my situation against me, while denying every single thing that is happening in my life and corroborating each other. if I mention any of this, it can only imperil me, because breaches of ideological truth about things happening in society are treated with much gravity by the nazis. and also, I am receiving constant implied threats from big brother, which reminds me that I have made statements about the mental health system recently, while the nazis that police me have a habit of treating my writings as instructions, and I must always keep in mind that this can be next. they always leave everything ambiguous, so that this can be used as torture as well. the other possible outcome: they'll use threats to make me do more to assert my rights, until the public will find something for which to target me.
they can permit themselves many things which they do not permit me. the reason for this is very simple: I am the one being targeted. they can harass me everywhere in ways which if I respond to will be used by them for public humiliation, and even when my responses are far milder, I am the one being targeted, while anything they do is overlooked. also, they can get along in any manner with each other when I'm in their company, they can argue, they can express emotion, and it's all ok. but they always single me out and treat my every breath with much severity, because I am the one targeted. in public, they can accuse me of things which if I accuse them of will lead them to attack me in the same manner that they do when they accuse me. there are great masses of them targeting me as a society, and therefore they can permit themselves tremendous double standards, because I am the one being targeted.
and whether interacting with any of them, speaking with any of them, encountering them on the street, or experiencing them in any other way, they are always able to switch contexts very swiftly, and at one moment they'll reveal themselves in all their nazi monstrosity, and the next moment the context is suddenly switched, none of it has taken place, and any reaction to them is contextualized accordingly and they'll drain you by guilt.