unrelated to previous:
they all do the same things at the same time, and then if I describe any of them I accidentally describe all of them, and then each and every one of them can get mad at me 'individually', while great masses of them are fixated on my every move, and conveniently none of them seem to be aware that they all do the same things at the same time, and then each of them can also get mad at me for acknowledging this, while again conveniently oblivious to being fixated on me and not even able to admit that they know who I am while corresponding to my life in ways which are impossible to ignore. and another thing, while I am the only one capable of understanding subtlety, only they are allowed to use it, because there are great numbers of them all targeting me. and so each of them only needs to do a little, while I am always in the center and targeted by masses, and so they can be employed to use subtlety (which they don't even understand), while if I do so this will create tremendous problems when I am being targeted by all of them. moreover, because they are the ones who are targeting me, they can permit themselves anything while permitting me very little, and punish me if I disobey them.
they also often will appear to take great pleasure in excessive privacy. and they even subject me to excessive standards of privacy towards them, while spying on every single thing I do in masses and inflicting retributions for every single detail of my life. they become very coercively involved in everything I do and very much exploit every bit of knowldege gained by spying on my life against my will, and then gloat that they don't have to suffer the things they make me suffer and subject me to standards of privacy and social standards that conveniently overlook anything that is actually happening in this society. then they make fun of me for writing too much, while again overlooking the way I am living and the way I am treated by society, and that their derision is kind of meaningless when they are revolving around me, but again because I am the one being targeted this can just be overlooked.