the problem is that they never listen in the first place. then they can use it against me that 'by now' no one is listening. there never was any period when they did listen. if my writings are not ignored, they're used for sadistic purposes, and that's the way it was every step of the way. if I'm annoyedly repetitive, and hoping very much that they'll get the point, they'll just sigle me out as the one who is repetitive (in contrast themselves who are not repetitive).