I am also now not allowed to breathe in public. I've noticed that everyone else is allowed to breathe, and that when they do it it's just breathing, but that when I do it it's a big moral issue.
it's precisely them that have been harassing me in all these ways for many years and quite intentionally and quite without mercy, and so it's only fitting that the eventual outcome of this is that they won't allow me to breathe in public. they are the ones that create these problems and keep insisting on them.
I make noises because I don't like it when those that police my thoughts get very close to me, and I know well that if I don't practice defenses against them they will know no limits. sometimes I also just breathe, and have found myself in several tremendous moral predicaments for this. and when I had spent many years just having them policing my thoughts and just hoping that they'll stop, they just kept intensifying it and intensifying it. anything they do can just be overlooked, and anything I say about it will be used for further targeting. the contexts they'll use against me may sometimes be entrenched as common-sense, and yet contexts entrenched as common-sense often don't make any sense. but it's awkward to even say anything against common-sense, and they are all there to protect it even when this has absolutely nothing to do with anything that is actually happening in this society and anything done by themselves.
it's very unpleasant to even mention these things, but they rather keep insisting on making these issues quite central in my life. any being with intelligence would notice that these things are done on purpose and have been for many years.