and there are always various pressures to conform to the herd and to various activities. it is quite excruciating for me to surround myself by 'people', but the pressures routinely overlook this. if I do I know how it will go. if I don't this will be used against me at a later date. they tell me I should enjoy being with 'people', and they use it against me if I don't enjoy being with 'people', and they ensure that I don't enjoy being with 'people', and whenever there are 'people' around I will be singled out, teamed up against, and subjected to various tortures every time, and if I avoid 'people' this will be remembered and used against me and to justify doing these things which they do anyways, and yet they somehow don't make it very enjoyable for me to be with 'people'.