and whenever I single out any member of the team (the entirety of society), I will immediately be converged on by society as a whole no matter where I go. and whenever there is any vulnerability in my life I am immediately attacked and cannot go anywhere to avoid this, and whenever I let down my guard in any way anyone required will appear before me to reject me, and whenever anyone is nice to me, like clockwork they'll be first in line to kick me when I'm down. and I'm not permitted to walk on the street, to think, to however slightly trust anyone, or to do anything at all. I'm being targeted by a relentless mass of pigs.