I write to vacant air, and anything I write is put in the spotlight and is open to attack from absolutely any direction. everything always has to be suited to the least level of understanding and protected against the most basic interpretations and intentions, and so they shouldn't expect me to also write well in this circumstance.

sometimes it may seem like a point has been well made, but then they just persist and persist in the same ways.

the problem is that they never listen in the first place. then they can use it against me that 'by now' no one is listening. there never was any period when they did listen. if my writings are not ignored, they're used for sadistic purposes, and that's the way it was every step of the way. if I'm annoyedly repetitive, and hoping very much that they'll get the point, they'll just sigle me out as the one who is repetitive (in contrast themselves who are not repetitive).

I can't write in much detail about the private sector, because I'll end up being attacked by mobs of the public, and the private sector exploits this in ways which I'd rather not go into much detail about, because I can't write in much detail about my private life without ending up being attacked by the public. logic will do absolutely nothing for me at those times when they've already gotten the taste of blood and are set on destroying whatever I'm doing. they keep coming from whatever direction sees an opening, while each component will not acknowledge any of the others.

the pieces of shit target me as a collective. they give me no space to exist and allow me nowhere to go, all I can do is write about it, and then they keep preying on me for my writings. they arrange themselves so that I cannot exist: they overlook every single thing happening in my life, tell lies that are as contradictory to this reality as possible, and demand that I live by these lies and use them as converging walls. they police everything I do in 'privacy' as well as everything I think, and if I write about it this only helps them to police those things in the name of policing my writings. whatever they're policing, they'll always do it in the name of something else which they very often won't allow me to question. and I can't as much as move or turn my head or do anything without being caught in the middle of them being coercively involved in whatever I'm doing.

surprisingly, they have not gotten the point. now the private sector sees an opening. the private sector has the advantage of a deniability which comes closer to being rational than that of the public, and is protected by the public against protection against itself.

the pieces of shit ensure to always keep me in the spotlight and so I can never be free. if I stop writing, quickly the law becomes determined by the thoughts I am thinking, and they just police me as a society for my thoughts and know absolutely no limits and need to justify themselves to no one. writing about it is the only thing I can do to stand up to the nazi society, and then everything I write is ovelooked except for anything that can be used against me or justify the exercise of arbitrary law. if I let down my guard in any way, the virus will quickly go about policing my thoughts by means of torture and will remind me that there is nothing more important than protecting my thoughts and my senses against them. if I protect my thoughts and my senses against them, they will go about eating and eating away at my defenses.
they actually don't do anything positive whatsoever, however, I must always consider their demands above everything else, because they act in accordance to every detail of my life everywhere I go in brutal and coercive ways. they cannot acknowledge logic, because logically they shouldn't even be there, and so I cannot value logic, because they are extremely numerous and are all fixated on me. if I am not in favour with them, I will be much less free no matter where I go, because they are all the same everywhere and all act like they know me everywhere and I will have to suffer punishments by them and will not be able to avoid these or to find anywhere to go where this won't occur. they also ensure that my life cannot go anywhere, and give me absolutely no reason to value anything they say or to give a shit whether I am in their favour or not today, other than that they are all the same everywhere, inflict punishments, exploit vulnerabilities, and are tremendously numerous.
no matter what I do or which way I move, above all else I must always consider the demands of those that spy in masses on my every move and not only do nothing positive in my life, but in fact even deny knowing who I am and use it against me if I even mention that they all act like they know who I am everywhere, and then subject me to whatever context required at any given moment to also target me and prey on me for every effect of the targeting which they deny. I must consider their demands above all else because they will use it against me that they know me everywhere and I will have to suffer punishments every time no matter where I go when any detail of my life or my thoughts are not in their favour.

the rapist pieces of shit involve themselves in my life, and police as a society my activities inside my house.

the pieces of shit become coercively involved in everything I do at all times.

the rapist pieces of shit constantly police my thoughts and movements by means of torture.

the pieces of shit do not allow me to think. they use me thinking for purposes of rape and torture. they become coercively involved in the process of me thinking and inflict punishments on me for my thoughts. they do this everywhere I go. they use this to police my every movement. everywhere I go, the pieces of shit will be raping me and becoming coercively involved in my thoughts. being raped is extremely unpleasant, and when an entire society is targeting you in these ways, one must renounce all movement to avoid these extremely unpleasant experiences.

the rapist piece of shit persists in policing my thoughts by means of torture. it is becoming coercively involved in thoughts that I think, and inflicting punishments on me for my thoughts.

the pieces of shit police my thoughts by means of torture. as I write this, a rapist piece of shit is policing my thoughts by means of torture. this rapist piece of shit persists in policing my thoughts by means of torture and is not stopping.

if I try to protect myself against thought-rape, the rapist pieces of shit gang up against me and humiliate me in large groups. they can permit themselves anything while permitting me very little, because I am the one they are targeting as a society. they police my thoughts by means of torture and then target me in large groups for trying to protect myself against this rape.

the rapist piece of shit persists in policing my thoughts by means of torture as I write this, and is becoming coercively invovled in the process of writing.

of course I can't write anything about anything other than the disease public, because the disease public has the greatest numbers and can attack me in the greatest mobs. if I write about anything other than the disease public, that's a vulnerability, and the disease public can attack me for it. and if I mention anything about being targeted by nazis, I have to be reminded that they are the nazis by which I am targeted and will just target me for targeting me and use every effect of targeting me for further targeting.

the rapist pieces of shit constantly police my thoughts by means of torture. I cannot think anything when these rapists are around, as they are constantly policing my thoughts by means of torture.
I was also hoping that eventually they will permit me to make a living, but instead they seem to be going more in the direction of further restricting my movements and breaths within society and not allowing me to be anywhere or do anything.

one day a bunch of rapist pieces of shit that call themselves humans began raping me constantly as a society and policing my thoughts by means of torture, and then just kept raping and raping and raping, and have yet to stop. this disease is everywhere.

they deny every single thing that is happening around me, and then target me according to fictions by means of methods they won't admit to, such as them acting like they know me everywhere, in order to police my every move and my every breath. they really don't let me exist at all. they also often tell me that I am not sufficiently considerate to them, and use this for further targeting.
the public rapes me in masses. then the private sector will tell me none of it has happened and will use a different context against me to target me for any response to being raped by masses. if I don't respond in their presense, they'll begin targeting me for my writings. I think they are targeting me, and are quite set on this. they don't let me be anywhere and don't let me exist.

the rapist pieces of shit persist in policing my thoughts by means of torture.

the rapist pieces of shit constantly police my thoughts by means of torture.

the pieces of shit police my every move and every thought by means of torture.

the pieces of shit do not allow me to think when they're around. they police my thoughts by means of torture and conditioning, and have been doing so in masses for many years. they attach themselves coercively to every detail of my life and always must bring everything to destruction, including me walking on the street. they are nice to me one day so they can be assholes the next, and then they keep switching back and forth, and every time will also try to make me think that I've done something or they've found something out about me suddenly and this is why they've suddenly become assholes again and again and again. they shun everything I do and do not allow my life to go anywhere. they target me in masses and do not allow me to be anywhere or do anything. they gang up against me as a society and always force me to the spotlight, and then target me as a society for my writings. everything I write is of course documented and can be, and is, used against me, and if I delete anything I write this will create tremendous problems when great masses of them are fixated on my every move. anything they do can be, and is, denied. they act like they know me everywhere and do not even admit to this, although they use this to police every detail of my life as a society. if I mention anything about them acting like they know me everywhere, this is used against me. anyone I talk to will make references to my writings without admitting to it and then use this against me, and for different purposes. if I stop writing my rights cease to exist altogether, and I must resume. as I write this I receive electric shocks to my body. when I show them any kindness they immediately take advantage of me. if the lies they tell me as much as enter my thoughts I am subjected to psychological punishments by them. my senses of course cannot be put to much use when these pieces of shit are around. they don't really permit me to exist at all and barely leave me any space where I can be.
all these things are a little more on the side of extreme sadism than inconsideration. if I am not sufficiently considerate, or leave any opening whatsoever which they can attack, or if they just haven't attacked me for a while, or if I am thinking any thoughts or feeling any emotions, this will be met with punishments by them. surprisingly, this doesn't make me like them more, although it does make me like them less.

I constantly receive electric shocks to my body, and big brother involves itself coercively in everything I do.

and because I write about the violations this society is constantly committing against me, this only helps them intensify the violations, because they'll now do it in the name of punishing me for my writings. I was attacked yesterday as punishment for the thoughts I was thinking as well as activities inside my house. the mob gangs up against me and targets me everywhere I go. the streets are filled with disease that needs to be eradicated.

the pieces of shit police me and target me as a society. they tell me what I am allowed to do and where I am allowed to be. I can't step outside of my house without wars being declared on me. anything I say about being targeted by a society of nazi pieces of shit will just be used against me, because anyone I can turn to is just the same.
they act like they know me everywhere, but do not admit to this. if I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere, it is just used against me. however, them acting like they know me everywhere is very much used to police my life. whenever something in my life has to be policed, the disease will be there every time and emerge from every corner for the purpose of policing these things, however, they tell me they don't know who I am, although they act like they do know who I am. these things, that tell me they don't know who I am, and act like they do know who I am, also have a habit of declaring war in masses on me whenever I write anything that can even potentially give them some reason to accuse me of deception. that's funny, because they are allowed to be as deceptive as they want, but I can get attacked by tremendous amounts of them if I write anything that can even potentially be accused of being deceptive. at this point, they of course will still not admit knowing who I am, and will still use it against me if I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere, however, they do use it that they act like they know me everywhere in order to police my life.

whatever arguments I make will need to be convincing to a bunch of insane nazi idiots that target me as a society, police my thoughts, are fixated in masses on my every move, act like they know me everywhere without being able to admit to it, deny every single thing they do and use every effect of targeting further against me, and obviously don't read anything I write but do respond very strongly to any vulnerability in anything I write. fucking disease.

and it's funny how they are permitted to do anything, but they don't permit me to do anything. die. pieces of shit. die in great masses.

there is not much that can be had of freedom, when a bunch or rapist pieces of shit are targeting you and policing you as a society and are fixated on your every move and every thought, although if great masses of them were to die, that would be better.

when I ask them they tell me they don't know who I am. but when there's something in my life to police, masses of them will converge on me and not only act like they do know who I am but also use every bit of knowledge of every detail of my life against me. what a bunch of rapists.

again, they didn't specify why they attacked, they just attacked. I was not in favour with them today, and they inflicted punishments on me as a society.
they act like they know me everywhere I go, and use this to police my life. they all act like they know me everywhere, like I was famous, although I am being shunned by them. there are several other things I have written that could merit punishments within a fascist society such as this, was I punished for those? I don't know. they didn't use words. they just inflicted punishments. am I famous? or are they just a society of rapist perverts who are spying on my life?

what a fucking disease. they will avenge themselves on me in masses for mentioning anything about them not allowing me to breathe, by means of the psychological torture they've been inflicting on me for many years to police my thoughts, in the name of democracy, while targeting me as a society.

the nazi pieces of shit police me and target me as a society. they all act like they know me everywhere, but do not admit to this, and then use their personal relationship with me to subject me to social standards of some fictional society which is not this one. they are pieces of shit.

the rapist pieces of shit police me as a society. they do not permit me to do anything in life, and do not permit me to be anywhere. wherever there are large amounts of pieces of shit, especially in enclosed places, they will gang up against me, single me out morally, and police my thoughts by means of torture. I wish they would die in masses instead.

I said something about breathing. I'm sorry that the things they do are so absurd that if they deny it they can attack me in masses for trying to deceive great masses of them. they also all act like they know me everywhere. they don't admit to knowing who I am, but they act like they do know who I am. also, they don't allow me to move around within society or to be in any enclosed places, and use psychological torture against me and become involved in my thoughts. what rapists. was what I wrote about them not allowing me to breathe the reason why I was attacked? I don't know, they didn't specify, they just attacked. was it anything else that I have written? does anyone want to leave a comment, or do they just prefer to inflict punishments on me in masses everywhere I go, and act like they know me everywhere I go without admitting to this, and targeting me and policing me as a society?

there are tremendous amounts of these rapist pieces of shit all fixated on me, and they are all idiots, and are all the same. they have the same opinions at the same time, and they target me in masses. freedom cannot be possible as long as this disease is everywhere.

the rapist pieces of shit do not allow me to go anywhere in society or to do anything, and inflict punishments on me for that.

the rapist pieces of shit police me and target me as a society. they do not permit me to walk on the street or to do anything. they do not allow me to question society or ideology, and inflict punishments on me in masses if I do. they are a disease, and I wish they would die in great masses.

the rapist pieces of shit act like they know me everywhere, and use this to police my life. if I ask them they'll tell me they don't know who I am, however, they act like they do know who I am, and use this to police me in masses and to police every detail of my life. they use their masses and their personal relationship with me to inflict punishments on me for details of my life. they do not allow me to question society or ideology, and inflict punishments on me in masses if I do. the rapist pieces of shit are there and fixated on me in masses, and there can be no freedom as long as these rapist pieces of shit are not eradicated.

the rapist pieces of shit are targeting and policing you as a society, as well as shunning everything you do and not permitting your life to go anywhere? they give you trouble when you breathe? and don't allow you to question society, and inflict punishments on you in masses when you do? but that means that the rapist pieces of shit have to attack you now in large numbers and not permit you to walk on the street, which is funny, because they deserve to die.

and another funny thing: the rapist pieces of shit shouldn't even be there. they've been refuted in every way. however, they persist in targeting me and policing me as a society and coercively involving themselves in every detail of my life. this means that they are rapist pieces of shit.

and of course that thing about breathing had to be avenged by the rapist pieces of shit that have given me much trouble about breathing, by means of the rapist pieces of shit inflicting psychological torture on me everywhere I go, because surely I am trying to deceive the rapist pieces of shit that act like they know me everywhere without admitting to this and need to be punished by great masses of rapist pieces of shit for it. this is because the rapist pieces of shit are rapist pieces of shit, and they deserve to be shot.

the pieces of shit also inflict punishments on me whenever my life, my thoughts, or my writings are not in their favour (every second time I go outside). they tyrannize over me in great masses, and they police and target me as a society. they tell me what I am allowed to say, what I am allowed to think, and where I am allowed to be, and they use their great numbers to police me as a society. they act like they know me everywhere, are all the same, and they police everything I do. details of my life are met with punishments by the rapist pieces of shit that spy on everything I do, everywhere I go every single time.

the rapist pieces of shit also have a habit of not permitting me to be in any enclosed places in society, and inflicting psychological torture on me if I am. this is funny, because they deserve to die.

the rapist pieces of shit involve themselves in my life and police me as a society. there is never a single instance of me going anywhere without being violated by these rapists. they act like they know me everywhere I go and use this to police every detail of my life. do they admit knowing who I am? no. but they act like they do know who I am. if I mention anything about them acting like they know who I am, they do not respond with words. if they do respond with words, they tell me they don't know who I am. however, they act like they do know who I am.
they don't let me walk on the street and harass me everywhere I go. they constantly demonstrate that there is no reasoning with them and that they are indeed the nazis of which I speak who are not there to understand but to enforce. I can try to connect their personalized harassment of me to various details of my life, however, they themselves do not ever specify anything with words.
when pieces of shit harass me on the street, I learn that pieces of shit harass me on the street. that's what I learn. before I went outside, I did not know whether the pieces of shit will harass me today, I just knew that it's always a possibility. after I came back, I knew for sure that the pieces of shit have involved themselves in my life today in coercive and unpleasant ways. why did they do so? was it in retribution for something I did? was it in retribution for something I have written? I don't know. they did not say. they just harassed me in correspondence to details of my life and made it very difficult for me to walk on the street. does anyone read anything I write? I have no indication that anyone does. I just know that I have to be harassed by nazi pieces of shit every so often and have punishments inflicted on me corresponding to things I have written.
the pieces of shit are there, and so there will be no freedom today. it's funny that they are there, because they deserve to die in great masses. my writings on this page didn't show up for a while. then suddenly they did show up. now I am being harassed by nazi pieces of shit who deserve to be shot once again.

and again I have to deal with websites deleting my inappropiate art. if I try to as much as find out what they deleted, they use degrading psychological torture against me and don't let me use my eyes. that's funny, because they subject me to very strict standards and laws, and then they use torture against me. meanwhile, my art is completely shunned, and so it figures they might as well police it instead.

anything I say will only make them restrict my movements even more. that they act like they know me everywhere and operate on knowledge of/correspond to my life, is overlooked.

I also receive persistent electric shocks to certain areas of my body.
also, those that use their personal relationship with me everywhere I go to police my life often get irritated when I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere and try to overlook this while proceeding in the same ways, although I think this is quite a significant little detail.
and when they started involving themselves in my thoughts years ago, I don't know if they had expected to ever be regarded as anything other than a problem.

I am also now not allowed to breathe in public. I've noticed that everyone else is allowed to breathe, and that when they do it it's just breathing, but that when I do it it's a big moral issue.
it's precisely them that have been harassing me in all these ways for many years and quite intentionally and quite without mercy, and so it's only fitting that the eventual outcome of this is that they won't allow me to breathe in public. they are the ones that create these problems and keep insisting on them.
I make noises because I don't like it when those that police my thoughts get very close to me, and I know well that if I don't practice defenses against them they will know no limits. sometimes I also just breathe, and have found myself in several tremendous moral predicaments for this. and when I had spent many years just having them policing my thoughts and just hoping that they'll stop, they just kept intensifying it and intensifying it. anything they do can just be overlooked, and anything I say about it will be used for further targeting. the contexts they'll use against me may sometimes be entrenched as common-sense, and yet contexts entrenched as common-sense often don't make any sense. but it's awkward to even say anything against common-sense, and they are all there to protect it even when this has absolutely nothing to do with anything that is actually happening in this society and anything done by themselves.
it's very unpleasant to even mention these things, but they rather keep insisting on making these issues quite central in my life. any being with intelligence would notice that these things are done on purpose and have been for many years.

the pieces of shit monitor everything I do at all times, and police every single thing I do, as well as the movements of my eyes, as well as my thoughts, by the infliction of personalized tortures, psychological, sensory, and physical.

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they all do the same things at the same time, and then if I describe any of them I accidentally describe all of them, and then each and every one of them can get mad at me 'individually', while great masses of them are fixated on my every move, and conveniently none of them seem to be aware that they all do the same things at the same time, and then each of them can also get mad at me for acknowledging this, while again conveniently oblivious to being fixated on me and not even able to admit that they know who I am while corresponding to my life in ways which are impossible to ignore. and another thing, while I am the only one capable of understanding subtlety, only they are allowed to use it, because there are great numbers of them all targeting me. and so each of them only needs to do a little, while I am always in the center and targeted by masses, and so they can be employed to use subtlety (which they don't even understand), while if I do so this will create tremendous problems when I am being targeted by all of them. moreover, because they are the ones who are targeting me, they can permit themselves anything while permitting me very little, and punish me if I disobey them.
they also often will appear to take great pleasure in excessive privacy. and they even subject me to excessive standards of privacy towards them, while spying on every single thing I do in masses and inflicting retributions for every single detail of my life. they become very coercively involved in everything I do and very much exploit every bit of knowldege gained by spying on my life against my will, and then gloat that they don't have to suffer the things they make me suffer and subject me to standards of privacy and social standards that conveniently overlook anything that is actually happening in this society. then they make fun of me for writing too much, while again overlooking the way I am living and the way I am treated by society, and that their derision is kind of meaningless when they are revolving around me, but again because I am the one being targeted this can just be overlooked.

moreover, when I write, I can write whatever I want to. they'll try to push and pressure me in certain directions which will end up being used against me, without of course ever putting themselves in harm's way. if anyone wants any elaboration of anything, they can leave a comment. otherwise, I'm just talking to myself and getting punished for it by masses, and so I'll decide what I want to write.

I had also learned last year that they respond very strongly to vulnerabilities, and if there is any vulnerability suddenly they will become very coercively involved in the process of writing and derail everything to destruction and then attack you for it in great masses. one day they can be more honest about the true nature of themselves and this society, but they can switch any time to any level of deception, especially if there is vulnerability. everywhere I go everyone I encounter act like they know me and attach themselves to every detail of my life, while themselves a dystopian fasicst mob, and so obviously there cannot be any freedom in such a situation.

C will make me sympathize with it for lies it tells me, and will falsely take credit for qualities of mine while denying these qualities in me (C is someone I often talk to). then it will punish me for sympathizing with it by falsely accusing me of things of which it itself is in fact guilty, while again twisting all truth backwards. sometimes it may sound like they're making fun of themselves, but then I have to be reminded in very unpleasant ways that they just twist everything backwards and then 'means it'.

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all they really do is respond to any vulnerability while completely immune to reason. if there have been labels put on me of various sorts in the past which there is no way to defend myself against for various reasons, anyone I talk to will now have developed a taste for using these labels against me without me even bringing up the subject (I am not allowed to bring up the subject, only they are, and anything I say is just a revelation of my guilt or an initiation of hostility), and they'll use it against me that this is a weapon they can use against me.

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if I misbehave, the herd will reject me, while attaching itself to everything I do. they monitor every single thing I do, and suddenly I will be rejected by the herd because I have misbehaved in some way in my life. they tell me I should have more 'people' in my life, although every one of them has an obligation to reject me, and often under the pretext of me not having enough 'people' in my life, and everyone I encounter will use it against me that I don't have enough 'people' in my life, although will be obliged to reject me themselves (there isn't anyone that won't reject me, and then they use it against me that I don't have enough 'people' in my life, although as it happens I really don't like them by now and don't want to have more of them in my life). likewise, if I try to make a living from making art, everyone will always have much advice to give me, and if I take this advice, all I will encounter is lots of more advice, and so forth. I will never actually be able to make a living.

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I am in the spotlight, and therefore everything I do can be regarded as an initiation of hostility, although they are always allowed to initiate hostility, because they are not in the spotlight and they are targeting me. it's funny to be subjected to such standards by a society that is in fact shunning me, while these types of standards are usually applied to the extremely famous, powerful, and wealthy. one way for me to initiate hostility is by remembering things in the past (which only they are permitted). it is not considered that while they just accuse me of one thing in order to police another without much hesitation, these issues are more real to me than they are to them and the accusations have long-lasting effects, and so I won't be able to get past it until I address it, although from last year I had learned that this just makes things worse when everything attaches itself to you and responds to suggestions and vulnerabilities but not to logic.
the most powerful label society had put on me in the past year was 'racist', and I even recall using the word 'racism' myself once in my writings. I have looked at laws regarding freedom of speech, and was surprised to find out that it's not against the law to say the word 'racism' or to talk about racism. I recall writing something like: 'who cares about violating the rights of someone who has been labeled as racist' and being cynical about this attitude. this is around the time that the mob attacks began escalating to the point where it was infringing too greatly on me being a living thing and I realized that this society was not worth my efforts. however, it seems there is no getting past this label, first, because whenever you expose vulnerability or make any effort, while society is targeting you and fixated on your every move, this label can be used to destroy your confidence and to justify any treatment of you by the public, and second, because then the reverse of this can be used whenever the public has destroyed whatever you are doing to pressure you to confront this powerful label. as it happens, I had never actually felt any racism, I was just accused of it, and now I have some obligation to this issue because I have been affiliated with it.
I think that the observation I had quoted above was actually a good one. it is a powerful label to put on someone, and when used as a weapon it can justify all kinds of infringements of an individual and increases of thought-policing. there are many things to be said about it, but that's all I wish to say.

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the pieces of shit that come together in masses to beat you to conformity when you are not abiding by ideological standards, will of course begin targeting you for any silence, and pressuring you to prove yourself to them in ways which will allow them to further target you. they themselves never do shit of course except keep you in the spotlight, participate in targeting you, and pleasure in their mutual protection and their deniability of every single thing they do.

the pieces of shit monitor everything I do and police everything I do by means of harassment and torture.

when interacting with them as often I must, they do absolutely nothing but be cops. it is extremely unpleasant when they are around, which they always are.

moreover, I've referred to them as emoticons, because they've demonstrated that that's what they are, and I lock myself in my house to avoid them. when I go outside, they avenge themselves on me for this as a society and target me as a society for my every facial gesture. what a bunch of rapist pieces of shit that deserve to be shot. they subject every detail of my life to the standards that their society would subject the life of someone who is extremely famous, while shunning me and ensuring that I remain the most disempowered member of society, and then ganging up against me in great masses, spying on everything I do, and facilitating every facet of society against me while everyone participates and everyone is the same.

the pieces of shit are quite useless. however, they are always there to punish every single thing I do by means of harassment and torture. this includes messages of provocation and mockery for not devoting enough time to them or not being sufficiently daring. these are the same pieces of shit that come together in masses to beat me to conformity if I as much as move around within society or deviate from ideological etiquette even slightly.

the pieces of shit moreover have knowledge of (or correspond to) everything I do and everything I think at all times. they won't explicitly admit to this of course, but the instant I let down my guard they begin policing me based on that knowledge.

they always pressure you into all kinds of stupid shit that implicitly accept the truth of things that don't make sense but which they won't allow you to question. when you question the herd you also know that this will be met with punishments by the herd at a later date, although you never know when the punishment will be coming, and which weapon of the herd will be used to inflict it.

and of course I can't be permitted to write anything without big brother using this to develop yet another facet of its abusive relationship with me.

I constantly receive electric shocks to my body punishing me for my thoughts. also, the pieces of shit involve themselves in my thoughts and treat me accordingly. they also always demand that I prove myself to them, which distracts from them never doing anything other than being leeches of my every move. and at the same time they'll use each other as pressures for you to comply with various demands of the herd. if you've learned to say no to them, they'll persist in targeting you in every aspect of your life by all kinds of things they won't permit you to question until you've unlearned to say no to them. of course then it's them that will also be there to exploit this.

it also seems that it has been decided that I will be censored now, while the rapist pieces of shit of course can persist in all the same ways, while also shunning me and ensuring that my life cannot go anywhere.

surprisingly, after having battled the rapist pieces of shit in every way over a very long time, the rapist pieces of shit are still the same rapist pieces of shit.

I am also being harassed by big brother by means of propaganda shoved into my eyes when I press 'publish'.

the pieces of shit will sure enough be there to thwart every challenging of society or of ideology, as well as anything else that ever attains any value for you in your life. and it will be these same pieces of shit that will feel much more at ease violating your every right under the pretext of you not devoting enough of your time battling their unchangeable fascism. they gang up against you and ensure that nothing you do ever succeeds, and then they just keep you in the spotlight and persist in targeting you and targeting you and then targeting you for every effect of targeting you. they see to it that nothing can ever go anywhere and that nothing good can ever happen, and so then they just monitor your seasons of trying to put up with them and are the judges of whether your attempts at putting up with them are on ascending or degenerating paths, and determine their treatment of you accordingly.

if I try to do anything, or even move my eyes in ways which imply an intent to try to do anything, the rapists punish me for this by means of psychological torture.

the pieces of shit police me and operate against me as a collective. they also tell me how much money I am allowed to have, and above all place much importance on putting limits on how much money I am allowed to have (nor am I speaking of large amounts of money).

everything I do at all times is monitored, policed, met with punishments and used for sadistic manipulation.

and when you're not buying into their manipulation they just police you for no reason other than that they are the police. they don't need to hide this or justify themselves to anyone other than you, and you are the one they are policing. they are all the same, are everywhere, work together and always protect each other, and claim ownership of everything while not allowing you anything.
as I write this, I receive electric shocks to my body.

although they police every single detail of my life as a society, and take every opportunity they can for purposes of exploitation and conditioning, they do however also shun me and ensure that I am not able to make a living. and so, while very strongly discouraging me from going anywhere or doing anything, they make up for it by making these things impossible altogether.

the prison-society, possessing absolutely no capacity for self-criticism, will constantly try to teach you the most hypocritical moral lessons, and always by means of great amounts of force and mass public humiliations.

I was planning to go outside today, which I don't do very often because I am being targeted by society, and so a campaign of public humiliation has been waged on me accordingly to deter me from going outside, while I know that the nazis always just target me along with big brother.

when they police every single detail of your life, one might often get the impression that they are extremely receptive. however, what they do is enabled precisely by them being the opposite of this.

I'm constantly being harassed by big brother and its many manifestations psychologically as well as physically.

and after society has taught you that you are not allowed to stand up to it, they of course resume being the nazi pieces of shit they were in the first place, and remind you that the only reason why they ever pretend to be anything is for purposes of suppression.

the pieces of shit use their informal relationship with me to police my life, and so for instance they have decided that in my perspective I shouldn't write anything now, and so they censor me, or punish me by torture.

the rapist pieces of shit constantly police me by auditory and other torture.

I'm constantly being harassed by big brother in many ways.

and after years of having been persecuted in every way by the nazi pieces of shit, it will so happen that I will be persecuted further by the nazi pieces of shit. any standing up to them will be used by them for further targeting, and every one of them will keep proving to be the same as all the others. while shunning me as a society and acting like they know me everywhere, they'll use these things to subject me to contexts that ignore these things, and everything I do will be met with ridicule by them everywhere I go. not one of them will demonstrate any capacity to understand a single thing, and everywhere I go I will be confronted by more nazism. on good days they'll try to make me feel awkward everywhere by going too far out of their way to be considerate of me, as if to say: see we're not targeting you. a little logical lapse there though: my argument is that they act like they know me everywhere without admitting to this.
meanwhile, I am of course constantly being harassed by big brother by means of psychological torture as well as physical torture. I cannot do a single thing without the coercive involvement of big brother.

they'll often take various bites by falsely accusing me regarding details of my personal life, and then I have an obligation to 'divulge' these details to them. they act like they know me everywhere I go, do everything to indicate that everything they write and display is directed at me on the internet, music, books, tv, etc. will come as anonymous strangers, former-friends, former-mentors, people in your neighbourhood, people you know, and every member of society, and will all play by the same rules and use the same tactics. they'll use their informal relationship with me to subject me to standards that completely overlook their methods of subjecting me to these standards. anything they do can be overlooked, because of course I am the one who is being targeted.
moreover, no one will accept that I am capable of making judgments regarding the world around me, although I do everything to constantly demonstrate that I am (and it is my inference that they are not capable of making any rational judgments and are not able to see anything). anything I say about the 1984 state can of course be dismissed as mental illness, and if those around me were not all workers of the 1984 state, then the two possibilities would at least balance each other out. or a recent half-truth insinuation: my perceptions are altered by psychiatric drugs (I am not on psychiatric drugs, and haven't been for years). or often it will be insinuated to me that I am a con-artist, deceptive person, not sufficiently honest with myself, or operate according to a blood-sucking logic. the only thing I can say is that the evidence speaks for itself to anyone who is able to see, and that they are all these things.
or I watch too much television or am alienated from society: they've done everything to alienate me, and constantly ensure this, and when I watch television I waste time, but it doesn't interfere with my rational judgments, and in my life I had never watched much television, except for the television that is the world around me, in the sense that the world around me is literally like a television, that is, I have judged based on logical inferences and countless experiences and observations that it is a computer simulation. and likewise, if I experience strong emotions, if I have criticized society, if it's 'in vogue' to explain everything in terms of one's upbringing, if I have had many traumatic experiences in my life, and if I detest these things that call themselves people, such things will impact what I think about, but will not interfere with my rational judgments.
this, and my many previous writings, I think speak quite strongly in my defense. they don't need to make any arguments for themselves of course, because they have tremendous numbers, and I am the one they keep in the spotlight.

when speaking with any of them, they will persecute me for any honesty. the only thing to do with what is suppressed is write about it, and then everyone can work together to target me for my writings. in fact, everyone is continually reversing roles between good cops and bad cops, devil's advocates and actual devil's advocates, and have been doing this in all my interactions with them for many years, and every time there is a switch they'll try to make me think I've done something to deserve it or that they've found something out about me suddenly. just keep symmetrically switching attitudes towards me without explanations everywhere I go. moreover, I am shunned and not able to make a living, and the private sector will continually make excuses for the public and subject me to the standards of some other society, while the public sector will ensure that I remain financially dependent on the private sector. and they also ensure that I find it very excruciating to go anywhere in society, because my thoughts are policed by the nazis by means of torture everywhere I go, as well as every other detail of my life which they police as a society. and then they use my situation against me, while denying every single thing that is happening in my life and corroborating each other. if I mention any of this, it can only imperil me, because breaches of ideological truth about things happening in society are treated with much gravity by the nazis. and also, I am receiving constant implied threats from big brother, which reminds me that I have made statements about the mental health system recently, while the nazis that police me have a habit of treating my writings as instructions, and I must always keep in mind that this can be next. they always leave everything ambiguous, so that this can be used as torture as well. the other possible outcome: they'll use threats to make me do more to assert my rights, until the public will find something for which to target me.
they can permit themselves many things which they do not permit me. the reason for this is very simple: I am the one being targeted. they can harass me everywhere in ways which if I respond to will be used by them for public humiliation, and even when my responses are far milder, I am the one being targeted, while anything they do is overlooked. also, they can get along in any manner with each other when I'm in their company, they can argue, they can express emotion, and it's all ok. but they always single me out and treat my every breath with much severity, because I am the one targeted. in public, they can accuse me of things which if I accuse them of will lead them to attack me in the same manner that they do when they accuse me. there are great masses of them targeting me as a society, and therefore they can permit themselves tremendous double standards, because I am the one being targeted.
and whether interacting with any of them, speaking with any of them, encountering them on the street, or experiencing them in any other way, they are always able to switch contexts very swiftly, and at one moment they'll reveal themselves in all their nazi monstrosity, and the next moment the context is suddenly switched, none of it has taken place, and any reaction to them is contextualized accordingly and they'll drain you by guilt.

and there are always various pressures to conform to the herd and to various activities. it is quite excruciating for me to surround myself by 'people', but the pressures routinely overlook this. if I do I know how it will go. if I don't this will be used against me at a later date. they tell me I should enjoy being with 'people', and they use it against me if I don't enjoy being with 'people', and they ensure that I don't enjoy being with 'people', and whenever there are 'people' around I will be singled out, teamed up against, and subjected to various tortures every time, and if I avoid 'people' this will be remembered and used against me and to justify doing these things which they do anyways, and yet they somehow don't make it very enjoyable for me to be with 'people'.

everything in my life is closely monitored and policed by masses everywhere I go, and in everything I do and any way I move I must above all other things always consider the demands of those spying on my life.

the nazis constantly police me by auditory and various other tortures. the instant I expose my senses in any way they will immediately be exploited, and this is used to coerce the types of interactions that I have (ones I will do anything to keep short, for fear of more torture). everything I do is closely monitored and heavily policed. and I must always watch my every breath, because the nazi police state is closely fixated on my every breath, and more punishments are always imminent, and everyone I encounter is another nazi. and anything I say against the police state is used only for sadistic purposes.

I am constantly being policed by psychological and other torture. and if I do anything to check if the pieces of shit are still shunning me, the pieces of shit will take this opportunity to increase rape and torture of me.

and of course there is always much targeting by big brother, while those who police me in the name of being humans will always overlook this and will target me along with big brother.

The virus attacks whenever there is any opening, and will always do so. I live a life where everything always turns to shit, and hordes of identical people-things attack me whenever there is any vulnerability, and there is no reasoning with them, and they are not able to change. When infested by disease, one must devote one’s entire existence to dealing with it, and the disease only thrives on any attempt to cure it. Writing is itself a disease, although it was supposed to be a cure, while those around me thrive on this attempt at dealing with them. Acknowledging this problem may cost you your freedom of speech, because the virus only knows how to use its iron fists to force its unrequested help on you in accordance to its informal relationship with you based on spying on every detail of your life. When targeted by nazis it is important to have a right to freedom of speech, and you must constantly assert it to ensure that it’s there. This increases the disease, and also empties anything you say of content, as you must devote all your time fighting for the right to freedom of speech. If you don’t make your writings public, the virus will crawl into everything you write privately. If you don’t write anything, the virus will crawl into everything you think. And your rights and treatment by the nazi police state are constantly determined by their knowledge of every single detail of your life. Everywhere you go are lots and lots more of these identical people-things who are all there to police you, and you must also accept them as people or suffer the consequences, while they can switch to any context and use different contexts at the same time. When they’re required to police you in the name of being humans they’ll be very forceful in doing this, and there will be no way to escape the selective humanity by which they’ll pursue you everywhere you go precisely when convenient, and when they’re required to police you by means of torture they’ll justify this by reminding you that they’re not humans and that they can do whatever they want because they cannot be changed, have tremendous numbers, are limited by no conscience, operate as a collective to protect each other, and are behind every facet of the system and its institutions which are supposed to be there to help you. Anything you have to say however, is routinely and unanimously overlooked whenever this interferes with the virus proceeding in its ways. Words no longer have any value, unless backed by iron fists, and the only significance is that you keep trying to protect yourself against something that does not ever change, while you are always kept in the spotlight and are targeted by that something, while that something possesses no ability for self-criticism and you do, and that something just thrives on this and is able to tell you that you have reached a point where you are no longer permitted to stand up to it while it of course can keep doing whatever it wants.

The pieces of shit constantly police me by auditory and other torture, and police my movements and thoughts inside my house. My whole life is devoted to protecting myself against these rapists, and then whenever there is the slightest vulnerability they strike. And then they send their agents of humanity to exploit the vulnerability created by the excess of protection I must have for my senses and my thoughts against them. And then they put everything I write in all kinds of irrelevant contexts, wherein things I write would sound pretty stupid, if these things weren’t in fact taking place. All is infested by their propaganda of human herds, and they are not even humans. The entire farce they represent as a society is filled with celebrities, witch-hunts, man-hunts, and various devils of the masses. Anything I write about this will be targeted by some false context and will be reversed against me, and the fact of me being targeted will be unanimously overlooked, because of course I am the one being targeted.

Next I am censored by big brother. If I don’t exercise my freedom of speech constantly, it is not there when I wish to have it. Then I must devote all my time fighting for the right to freedom of speech, until I must be censored by society, for no other reason than that everything I do must be policed. If my internet access has been sabotaged however, while the internet is just about the only thing left to me for purposes of self-expression, then if I go outside I will be targeted for silence and leeches will jump at me and accuse me of various things, because my silence too is an aggression against the pieces of shit that attach themselves to everything I do, or more accurately, they are a virus which is there to work together against me. Moreover, spending so much time fighting merely for the right to freedom of speech helps belittle anything I say, when all the campaigns of censorship against me are in fact being used for sadistic purposes and nothing else. The problem with communism is that the police should not be mistaken or foist themselves as someone who is there to help, and to help by force. If I would like to have the right to remain silent, and even manage to exercise this right despite being constantly policed, it is not then the place of the police to censor me in order to isolate the very right I am currently exercising (not interfering with this right, but not allowing for any more than one right at a time). If I do ask for the help of any of them, they will not help. They make themselves as useless as possible, but always find the time to police everything I do. Everyone I encounter on the street is as well another nazi who is always there to enforce the workings of big brother. They also shun me and ensure that I cannot have money, although they do police my art and inflict punishments on me when it’s not to their liking. Everyone I encounter or communicate with is another of these pieces of shit who are there to torture and to rape.
As I write this I am contacted and punished by another facet of the virus. Every single detail of my life is monitored and met with punishments by the nazis. I receive electric shocks to my body constantly. I of course cannot break their laws and must use words against them. There aren’t very many words, and all language is filled with various traps. The virus can also target me for being too infested by the virus. Sure enough, if I write privately, this will immediately be met with punishments by the pieces of shit who monitor and police everything I do all the time. They become coercively involved in every single detail of my life no matter where I am. They are pieces of shit, and that’s all there is to be said about them. They also police me by means of psychological torture even when I am alone in my house, and everyone I deal with is another of these nazis who are there to police me and to do everything to enslave me, and who deserve to be shot. It works wonderfully to their advantage that they are deaf and blind pieces of shit whom no amount of reason can deter from their parasitic functions. As I write this I receive electric shocks to my body, and the rapist pieces of shit will become coercively involved in every way in everything I write privately, just as they do in everything I write publicly, and just as they do in everything I think. I would like to smash this computer, but there are laws in place to compromise my safety if I do anything to harm objects.
They also become coercively involved in the process of me walking on the street, which they punish by means of rape and draining. Representatives of different things will shove themselves into my eyes so that I’ll have thoughts about them, and then next time I go outside they’ll punish me for any thoughts they’ve caused. If I have had thoughts stemming from any particular thing, that thing will claim ownership of the thoughts I’ve had and will punish me for them. They police my thoughts in the most literal sense, and use this to police my movements. Then they ironically use human contexts to police my thoughts as well. I am living in a nazi police state that calls itself a democracy, and the nazis that literally punish me for thoughts that I think will punish me twice as savagely for thought-crimes within the context of the ideological world, and usually as a mask for punishing me for thoughts I do not express in words, and which would not even be considered thought-crimes within the other context. They target and police me as a society, and I wish these nazi pieces of shit would be eradicated. They use it against me in every way that they know who I am everywhere, although they are not even able to admit that they know who I am. As for the computer: it is a problem. The bigger problem: the pieces of shit target and police me as a society, do not permit me options, do not let me be anywhere or do anything, take every opportunity to reject me in every way they can, isolate me as a society, and police me by means of torture and conditioning.

and if I've been censored by means of trauma and conditioning by the nazis, the nazis will immediately take advantage of this. the iron-fist-public is an enduring presence that will be employed in the future as they have in the past for purposes of suppression and policing, and they have many weapons, are everywhere, and are very very many. and so the private sector, which will as well divide itself into good cops and bad cops and operate as a syndicate within itself as well as function to serve the larger syndicate will resume working against me and taking advantage of every damage created by the public. I must stand up to them when attacked, although while doing so I know that everything will take the same course as before and that this is how it always starts and that I also know how it always ends.

the nazis keep targeting me and using the same exploitations as always, however, now it has been made known to me that if I stand up to them there will be elaborate campaigns of censorship against me every single time.
and so now they just tell me what to do all the time, and if I question them they'll immediately rise to each others' defense and use it for further targeting, and apply this method to police every single detail of my life. and around every corner is nothing but more of these nazis who are all there to police and to protect each other.