and if everyone has been very icy to me today, of course those that call themselves my family will just do the same. it's comforting to know that if this society had suddenly turned into a nazi society targeting me, those that call themselves my family will just participate in targeting me, as they always do and have always done. if they decide to arbitrarily lock me up, those that call themselves my family will probably be there to take their side.

I acknowledge, those I will have to encounter next time I go outside have very large numbers, and certainly are there to target me as well.

every single one of them will always overlook the way I am treated by all of them. everyone is ok with it and everyone participates in it. they always are quick to jump to each others' defense against me though, and use this to justify treating me in all the ways they've been treating me for many years anyways, during most of which I had done nothing to react and they just persisted and kept intensifying all these treatments. if I react, all it gives them is the bonus of convincing me that unlike all the years they've been treating me in these ways anyways, I've now brought it on myself.
they're a fucking disease.

the previous post was in reference to personal interactions I have with them. I don't know if there is supposed to be any relationship that I have with the collective that inflicts punishments on me everywhere I go, and seems to know how to make lots of faces as well, and act like they know me everywhere I go and seem to react and inflict retributions for details of my life everywhere I go while acting very familiarly with me.

the pieces of shit don't let me listen, speak, or think around them. they inflict punishments on me precisely when I do these things. I'm sorry that they keep insisting on this, then lie about it, and use this for further targeting when I really don't have anywhere to go, and then subject me in all their insanity to the standards of the society they feel like saying it is and use this to suck whatever life is left in me. they always single me out, team up against me, exclude me from everything, and ensure that this remains so. if I make any efforts, they will ensure to reject me. they police every single thing I do while overlooking every single method by which this is done. then they lie about every single thing and recontextualize everything I do and say according to a fictional context and use it for further targeting. then they tell me how wonderful they are and all this bullshit about the nature of the society in which I live, and they even seem to believe it themselves, even while demonstrating the falsity of what they tell me, and so obviously there is no hope with them.

and as for two of them doing the same thing: one of these wasn't regarding my earphones but was a similar thing, and they hadn't exercised this facet of their hypocrisy since the last time I wasn't devoting my every moment to the pieces of shit. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary today.
they always do the same things at the same time. sometimes I'll walk on the street and every single one of them I encounter will start rubbing up against me, and 20 of them will do it in a row, although on most days there wouldn't be physical contact with a single one of them. this makes it very difficult to describe anything, and it doesn't help that each of them is a monad-like thing that will not acknowledge anything other than its own demands. the very description I had just given will obscure my position and allow anything I say to be assimilated into it. one who is in fact in a special position is obscured by these monad-like things that crawl into every nook and every description. they are very disease-like.

also, something relatively small compared to everyone everywhere acting like they know who I am and then lying about it, my thoughts being policed, and other things. often I try to write about small things, because when I write about big things I have to get attacked by big mobs. the virus of course does not see through this, and only proceeds in exploiting it.
and so, the focus of the nazi disease society is now my senses. if they lie about everything, then if they overlook that they act like they know me everywhere I go, then they can invert everything I say against me within false contexts which they tailor for this purpose, and of course nothing will be addressed with words but met with corresponding retributions.
and so, today there have been two instances of two of them doing the same thing, and I am addressing one of them which I encountered when going outside. I always have my earphones on, because the pieces of shit have been abusing my senses and using conditioning against me and policing my thoughts by this in large masses and then lying about it. and so now, the music on my earphones, which are not the large kind but the kind that go inside your ear, infringes on one of these pieces of shit who tells me to put it down, which is a funny context to be used when my thoughts are being policed by these nazi pieces of shit by the abuse of my senses. and so now, these pieces of shit that don't even have senses, must be treated as having senses so delicate that they must infringe on what has already been infringed within the contours of my body, and at a timing when it seems to come across as a retribution for things I have written. moreover, and this is a pretty big thing: the pieces of shit police my thoughts. if they lie about it, they can project all their pettiness onto me within a false context, while overlooking that they act like they know me everywhere.
I have written in detail about something. I do not have any obligation to now keep writing in detail, if there so happens to next occur something that I don't want to write in detail about. and the reason why I write about relatively small things is because I am being targeted by society and am not permitted to question society without having to endure punishments everywhere I go, and I try to preserve my willingness to endure punishments for times when I may want to exercise it.
moreover, if I don't react in any way to the nazi pieces of shit that are quite set on targeting me as a society no matter what, they will be quick to reveal themselves in all their nazi monstrosity. being targeted by society is not something one will be permitted to remain silent about for very long, and the instant I react to the targeting, immediately everything they have been doing up to that point is erased from the collective memory, and every reaction of mine is put in the context of them being all the wonderful things they happen to feel like calling themselves, who also all happen to conveninetly know me everywhere I go and then lie about it.
fucking nazi disease society.

I went outside today. as expected, I was out of favour with the pieces of shit that police me as a society. as always, they use their informal relationship with me to police my life, although as always they don't feel obliged to mention to me that I'm famous, and in fact will deny knowing who I am if I ask them, although they inflict retributions on me for details of my life no matter where I go. nazi pieces of shit.
if there is something of a realization that the bullshit hypocritical morality of the society they will all say it is and corroborate each other and which they use to police me doesn't mean shit when they police my thoughts, torture my senses, team up against me as a society, spy on my life, and lie about everything, they may prefer to police me by more direct methods, where their hypocrisy cannot be disguised in any way, and instill fear in me by reminding me that underneath the facade they are just a bunch of nazi cops, and will use this to try to make me as self-conscious as possible, and once that's done they can begin lining up the hypocritical pieces of shit with whom I am now very out of favour, as being in favour with them is something that fleets the instant you're not devoting your every moment to them or have used profanity. the use of profanity is not treated lightly by the nazi pieces of shit that police and target me as a society, spy on my life, lie about every single thing, and police my thoughts.
what a fucking disease of a society this is. I wish they would die.

the rapist pieces of shit become coercively involved in my every activity and do not let me use my senses or to think. I am now reacting specifically to torture and conditioning by means of personalized advertisements, but I acknowledge that all pieces of shit and all facets of the big-brother-society are the same and are there to work as a team against me, and will all do the same, and constantly do. they also do many other things, but when I don't devote my every moment to them they just revert to the relentless policing of my thoughts and activities by torture, and can do so directly without need for extensive mind-rape. I wish this disease nazi society that just completely overlooks the fact that it is targeting me and doing nothing else would die.

the pieces of shit constantly become coercively involved in everything I do by the infliction of torture.

the pieces of shit constantly police my thoughts by means of torture, and there is no way to think or to be alive in any way when the pieces of shit are around. they also police everything else I do, and constantly remind me that they are there for no other reason than to police me.

the rapist pieces of shit involve themselves in my thoughts and police my thoughts by means of relentless torture, as well as become coercively involved in every single thing I do.

the pieces of shit target and police me as a society.

although every single thing I write is just overlooked, my every word is given tremendous power when it is required to not allow me to be in public or walk on the street. when I stop writing, the pieces of shit keep avenging themselves on me until I must resume. when I do write, I am not entitled to freedom of speech, because the pieces of shit are fixated in masses on me and every single thing I write is just an attempt to deceive them. if there is something that the pieces of shit lie about, which is just about every single thing, then if I'm honest about it this is an attempt to deceive the pieces of shit, who are fixated in great masses on me and act like they know me everywhere without being able to admit to it. they also use it against me if I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere.
it seems one is not entitled to any freedoms when large amounts of pieces of shit are fixated on one's every move.

moreover, because they lie about everything, then because they are fixated in masses on my every move, then it greatly infringes on them if I mention anything about them policing my thoughts, and can justify punishments next time I go outside, although I can be quite sure that no one will comment on anything I have written and no one will actually admit knowing who I am. it seems that what they want to do, is to police me and to inflict punishments. anyone I talk to will certainly still deny that anyone in the public knows who I am, while everyone in the public will persist in acting like they know who I am but will not be obliged to provide any explanations: I am the one being targeted, and so I am the one that has to provide explanations, or suffer consequences if I don't. no one will ask me for explanations, but punishments will be inflicted on me if I don't provide them.

whenever I stop writing, the pieces of shit keep avenging themselves and avenging themselves on me for whatever I had written most recently. when walking on the street, if my thoughts are guarded, the pieces of shit will keep picking and picking at my thoughts until my guard is down, and as soon as my guard is down the pieces of shit begin avenging themselves on me for my thoughts, policing my thoughts by psychological torture, or avenging themselves on me in reaction to whatever I have written most recently, but in correspondence to the thoughts I am thinking. if indeed nothing I say is taken very seriously, then why is my every word treated as a tremendous threat to the parasitic collective? everything in my life must be heavily policed, and no other logic seems to be relevant other than what fulfills the requirement to heavily police every single thing in my life. I wish I could go outside without the streets being filled with this A.I. humanoid disease, and I wish I could acknowledge the disease as disease without having to be attacked by mobs of disease.
anything I try to do that's in any way positive, will absolutely not be allowed, will be shunned, will be forbidden, or will be relentlessly eaten at until all desire for it disappears. the pieces of shit ensure to preserve my position of having nowhere to go, nothing I'm permitted to do, being singled out and in the spotlight, being isolated but permitted no privacy, and anything else that's required for them to best collectively prey on me and to keep taking away freedom after freedom from me, while I just have to accept all their double-standards and lapses of logic, because they have great numbers, great force, endless weapons, are set on targeting me no matter what, are everyone and everywhere, and leave me nowhere to go and allow no defenses against them.

the pieces of shit become coercively involved in my thoughts and in the process of me walking on the street, and they seem to know who I am and what I look like everywhere I go. every single thing in my life is put in the context of large amounts of pieces of shit being fixated on it, and so every single thing in my life is extremely restricted. all the freedoms I am told I have, I do not have, because the pieces of shit attach themselves in masses to every single thing in my life. anyone I talk to will deny that anyone in this society even knows who I am, will overlook anything and make excuses for anyone, will notice every reaction of mine and put it in some fictional context, and will use it against me that honesty about my surroundings is so arranged to be the easiest thing for idiots to dismiss, ridicule, and use for further targeting.

the pieces of shit involve themselves coercively in every detail of my life, allow me absolutely no private life, do not permit anything positive in my life, and police everything I do.

I am permitted no privacy inside my house and my thoughts and activities are constantly policed by sensory torture inside my house. these things are able to stop for long periods of time, and they swiftly return whenever I am not devoting my every moment to the pieces of shit. if I do anything privately in my life, I will not be permitted to, and my privacy will be invaded no matter where I am by the abuse of my senses which nowhere is unable to reach me.
when I go outside, the pieces of shit become coercively involved in my thoughts and in the process of me walking on the street. if I let down my guard in any way, quickly a piece of shit will be there to take advantage of this.
anyone I talk to is another idiot that will deny every single thing happening in my life and will use the weapons provided against me.
I don't like writing publicly, because all this enables is plenty of mind-rape and censorship by punishments, and so I must be forced to write when I don't feel like writing and invaded in every aspect of my life until I do. if I am now in favour with the pieces of shit, the pieces of shit will now 'want' to permit me freedoms, and so will use any amount of coercion and torture to force me to write when I don't feel like writing, because now they are not interested in censoring me, they're only interested in censoring me when I write anything. now they're ready to inflict any amount of punishments to permit me the freedom to write when I don't want to and to force me to write, and nowhere will I be able to escape the torture and invasion.

then I am in the public realm. this further interferes with me being able to go outside. those I will encounter in human form will dismiss the invasions taking place when I am inside my house, and will use this to make it very difficult for me to walk on the street. they also make it very difficult to walk on the street in very many other ways, including taking advantage of the thoughts I am thinking in brutal ways.
as it is, as long as I am not permitted freedom of speech and must endure punishments by masses for my every word, I am not very interested in writing at all, and so the parasite-collective will force me to, whether I go outside, am in my house, or talk to any of them and immediately am made to feel the need to find someone else with the capacity to understand. but there is no one else. everyone I encounter is just there to exploit me. there is no one to whom I need to present evidence, as they will overlook any evidence and will work for the team and allow nothing to interfere. there is no one to whom I need to explain anything. if I don't, this will be exploited. if I don't write at all, the invasions will know no limits, the abuse of my senses and my body will know no limits, and I will be forced to write publicly, where I can be exploited in more ways.
as I write this, the electric shocks to my body return.
the humanoid virus is just there to prey, and absolutely nothing else.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everywhere I go they all act like they know me. anyone I talk to will tell me that no one in the public knows me and will subject me to the standards of some society which is not this one. they police my thoughts, they do not allow me any privacy, and they increase harassment whenever I don't devote my every moment to them. if I devote my every moment to them, this will be exploited in every way. if I don't devote my every moment to them, I will be forced to. I can't go anywhere whatsoever without being targeted, and everyone acts like they know me everywhere, although it is used against me if I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere. I am living in a 1984 police state, and the things walking around calling themselves humans, are not able to see or understand, but are there to police and nothing else.

the invasion of my privacy and the policing of my every thought and movement inside my house keep increasing and increasing. I try to write privately about it, as writing is something one must constantly do when never left alone for a second, and am again reminded that I am not permitted to do anything privately in my life. it will be used against me in every possible way that I have chosen to write publicly, but it seems every time I don't I am not permitted to do otherwise, as those targeting you will ensure to always keep you in the public realm, because this allows for the maximum possible amount of exploitation. the abuse of my body and my senses in correspondence to things I do and think inside my house know absolutely no limits when it is required to force me to the public realm, where I can be exploited in very many ways. as it is, there is not much I am really permitted to say in the public realm. I have also received a phone call a few minutes ago from someone, and what I am writing now is not a reference to that phone call.

on this website the advertisements are visible only to me, and are used for abusive purposes as well.

the electric shocks to my genitals keep intensifying and intensifying until I write about it. once I write about it, I am in the public realm, and can be exploited from every direction with reduced ability to notice that I am being targeted by society, because I am now in the public realm and this is a semi-justification for society to target me. I also wish those targeting me in human form will occasionally notice the way I am being abused by advertisements for example, on wordpress for example, in very personal ways, visible in the public realm.

tomorrow I have to go outside. I think mind-rape will be very intense. sometimes I wish I could just be alive, but then I am reminded that the pieces of shit police me and target me as a society and everywhere I go they are all the fucking same and all target me.

and I've noticed I can't make such statements as 'when they're around I want to stab out my ears', or 'when they're around all I can do is shut myself off and die'. I acknowledge what they are (idiotic computer simulation herd), but this is the fascism under which I am living.

I constantly receive electric shocks to my body. there is nothing I can do other than write about it. I am not obliging anyone to care, and would prefer if they didn't become involved in my life in any way, and certainly not regarding this.

I'm being harassed constantly by big brother as well.

the pieces of shit police me as a society. they don't admit knowing who I am, but they act like they do know who I am. they inflict retributions on me for details of my life. they are not obliged to admit knowing who I am, and in fact deny knowing who I am, but they very much act like they do know who I am, and whenever my thoughts infringe on them are obliged to assert their right to harass me in rebellion to my thoughts and penalize me in other ways, which is very much acting like they do know who I am. whenever I go outside I have to suffer the consequences of everyone everywhere knowing who I am, and certainly whenever there is something in my life that needs to be, not policed, but met with personalized rebellion by the population against me, who happens to know who I am everywhere I go without recognizing me as possessive of any fame or authority and in fact shunning me and draining my life, within the bounds of the legal rights of each and every one of them, while each and every one of them happens to choose to pick on me and happens to know who I am without admitting to this, this is done every time.

I constantly receive electric shocks to my body. in a few days I will run out of cigarettes and have to go outside.

and now it's back to my writings being used for purposes of conditioning and harassment by big brother. I acknowledge: those I will have to encounter next time I go outside do not care, and are there to target me along with big brother.

and whenever I am out of favour with the community, the community will not permit me to speak calmly about anything. this is one of the many protective measures the community must take against an individual designated as a threat to the community, and enables the community to more effectively eliminate any threat by the individual.

every thought that I think is met with drastic consequences, and I must at all times be extremely careful in what thoughts I can think. when I am alone in my house I must watch my every thought very carefully because my thoughts will be met with drastic consequences next time I go outside. I am now not speaking of thoughts that I express, but of thoughts that I merely think. if I mention this I can be brutally penalized everywhere I go under the pretext of trying to deceive them. I don't oblige anyone to trust me, but there is never a single instance of anything whatsoever in my life that does not go avenged or exploited, and it doesn't matter where I go because everyone is the same everywhere and everyone acts like they know me everywhere.

and of course I am still being shunned, which seems to have been obscured during the course of the latest clampdown. they never fail to police and exploit every single thing in my life, but they can just completely shun anything I try to do with my life that's positive. if I even mention money they'll tell me I don't need it, as it is understood that I am in a special position of being targeted by society and that while they can have money I 'don't need it'. likewise, it's understood that I cannot have many freedoms at all, am not welcome in any public places, cannot do anything with my life, cannot have any privacy, cannot be permitted to think, cannot take an interest in political matters or anything else, and just about every other freedom I am told I have I do not have.
I write this, and so must consider the public I will have to encounter, and acknowledge that they will just have the same opinion.

everywhere I go the pieces of shit team up against me, harass me, and treat me in any way they please. I mostly try to protect my senses against them and to get from point A to point B, but if I write about it this greatly infringes on them and they are now obliged to assert in masses their right to treat me in these ways. if I briefly go outside, which I don't do very often, they will busy themselves punishing me for details of my life on which they spy. they act like they know who I am and use it against me if I mention that they act like they know who I am and also use it against me that they act like they know who I am. they come in the name of democracy, and they target me as a society.

they've been policing my thoughts and my senses by means of relentless torture for very many years, and using this to intentionally cripple every aspect of my life at all times, and not permitting me to react lest they further single me out and converge on me. they did not allow me to ignore for an instant that they were doing it on purpose, and would take brutal advantage of my thoughts whenever I would make any excuses for them so that I would be able to have any temporary peace of mind, and they did not allow me to ignore for an instant that they were policing my thoughts and torturing my senses in correspondence to my thoughts, and would take advantage of my every effort to block them out in any way. they would not permit me to close my eyes or blur my vision around them, and they would not permit me to block my ears around them. everywhere I would go they would act like they know me and know every detail of my life, and would police my life by means of their great numbers and in the names of anything they could. they never left me alone for a second, and any time I misinterpreted this as an attempt by them at being friendly, they would coldly reject me, team up against me, and humiliate me in large groups. then they would deny every single thing happening around me, corroborate each other, and subject my every breath to the standards of some society which is not this society. they would unanimously overlook every single thing happening around me, would notice every single reaction of mine, and would use this to team up against me as well, and anything else they could. they would always keep me in the spotlight no matter how much effort I had made to be private, and would use the spotlight for every kind of manipulation, every kind of distortion of truth, every possible distortion of perspective, and every type of targeting and exploitation that can be accomplished by large protected numbers against an individual always kept in the spotlight without of course ever being recognized as possessive of any sort of authority or fame, and usually labeled a misfit, criminal, or mentally ill. the latter labels have of course expanded in many ways, but other than that much of the above persists just the same.
and so now I can't say anything about any of this, because this infringes on those who have been treating me in these ways for many years, and all act like they know me everywhere I go, and keep treating me in all the same ways, and now gives the community an excuse to 'protect itself against me', when I rarely go outside of my house and certainly never even come close to exercising any of the freedoms I see others exercising, and to avenge themselves on me in all the same ways and in large numbers for any interference on my part with them policing everything I do.

the logic of the reverse-panopticon is to target an individual who is always kept in the spotlight from every direction while everyone works as a team against the individual and everyone is there to protect everyone else, other than the individual being targeted. the types of targeting are determined by this setup. of course one always kept in the spotlight is made to feel an obligation to always be truthful, against their own interests, because the lights are fixed on his every move while those surrounding him who tell only lies are made obscure and are permitted any double-standards because of this. of course one is constantly accused by these prison-guards precisely of being deceptive, and can suffer punishments for even uttering such a statement as 'one is made to feel an obligation to always be truthful'. there are very many things that the prison-guards can accuse the prisoner of but not the other way around, due to the requirement for constant demoralization of the prisoner, although very often these accusations are more accurate backwards. the prisoner is not permitted to express himself very well, as he can rarely get through a sentence without uttering some profanity because otherwise this will be interpreted as a vulnerability by the prison-guards, and is also very limited by the prison-guards in the ideas he is permitted to express, as all eyes are at all times on his every move and any uncareful step is quickly met with punishments no matter where the prisoner goes. this makes the prisoner also appear as vulgar, which of course works to the benefit of demoralization of the prisoner which the prison-guards exploit.
the types of targeting are tailored to the prisoner and to the spotlight. if manipulation can make any defenses by the prisoner appear inverted to the prisoner, this is a very effective method of personalized demoralization, as everything the prisoner holds in high esteem will be made to appear to the prisoner as inverted against them, which is accomplished by means of manipulation and the flexible and arbitrary use of any and every context. if the prisoner uses any context that is borrowed, this will only be exploited, as the prisoner is the only one in the spotlight, and so the prisoner can be violated precisely according to the context they are using, and then any reaction by the prisoner will allow the prison-guards to accuse the prisoner of exploiting this context. and so, the prisoner cannot use any borrowed contexts, while the prison-guards are permitted to use any borrowed contexts they wish, and the prisoner is not permitted to be playful, humorous, or to do anything other than be very straightforward all the time, which makes it easier to accuse the prisoner of being deceptive and of hiding their deceptions precisely in this way. the prisoner is also not permitted to speak calmly, as this will be treated as a vulnerability by the prison-guards. and any logical arguments of course don't impress the prison-guards much.
the war is extremely elaborate and was waged against the prisoner long before the prisoner was ever aware that there is a war. I don't give a shit about anyone trusting me or not, I just don't have anything better to do right now than write about my life.

as I write this I receive electric shocks to my body. there will be no comments on this post, as is my best guess, but in a few days I will have to go outside and receive penalties for it. or maybe I'll be in favour with them again, which means I'll have to feel obligations to them again, which happens whenever I don't give a shit about them anymore, and then when I feel obligations to them again they turn into assholes again.

I'm not permitted to think logically. the mob does not acknowledge logic, and the mob can attack me in mobs.

targeting by big brother, I can't write about that. electric shocks to my body, can't write about that. targeting by any and all media, can't write about that. events in my personal life, can't write about that. if I'll be harassed by police I can't write about that. anything that lets down my guard before those I must encounter in masses, I can't write about any of that. the public can attack me in the greatest mobs and inflict the most penalties and punishments, if I write of anything not directly related to those I encounter in public, this is letting down my guard and can be punished brutally next time I go outside. of course, officially it's just denied that anyone in the public knows who I am.

and descriptions that I apply to their methods of targeting, they can then apply to processes of my thoughts. did they notice that they police my thoughts? if I don't notice, no one will, and obviously they don't know any limits. and I am able to see this society for what it is, while they are only able to lie, but their lies enable them to accuse me of not being able to see multiple perspectives due to me being able to see this society and them for what they are. of couse, they, who are able to see multiple perspectives unlike myself, just keep attacking me in mobs and inflicting punishments and penalties on me whenever there is any vulnerability in anything in my life, while not able to admit that they know who I am, but acting like they do know who I am. I'm sick of these stupid pieces of shit policing me as a society and telling me what to do all the time.

and I'm sick of having to explain everything to this idiotic herd. obviously they don't read anything I write but only respond to vulnerabilities, and obviously they are quite set on targeting me no matter what and in any way.

and I constantly hope that the nazis will be able to just see something, like things happening in this society, or the way I am living, but they just persist in targeting me in all the same ways, closing all doors, and teaming up against me and singling me out everywhere and policing my life.

there are many very visible things to be seen that demonstrate that this society is what I say it is. but the pieces of shit I must encounter in masses are all just agents of the thought-police and are there to enforce all the stupid non-sensical bullshit that does not stand up to rationality. they act like they know me everywhere. if I was famous, and it was forgotten to be mentioned to me that I am famous, there wouldn't be any one individual legally obliged to mention to me that I am famous, other than those who would be legally obliged to mention to me that I am famous, but it would have been extremely unlikely that not one of them would have taken it on themselves to mention this to me, and even less so that they would deny everything and use the denials against me. they are all agents of the thought-police, they are all nazi pieces of shit, everything they say is a lie, and they have no purpose other than to police my life, police my thoughts, and drive me out of everywhere I try to go and destroy everything I try to do. I'm so fucking sick of this nazi piece of shit society targeting me and tyrannizing over me and telling me what to do all the time.

however stupid and irrational their ideology, there are always plenty of pieces of shit ready to inflict punishments and penalties everywhere I go for it. they will absolutely not recognize any rationality and will only fulfill the functions of targeting me in masses. everywhere I go all I encounter is more of these pieces of shit. they act like they know me, will use it against me if I mention this, and will also use it against me that they act like they know me and in correspondence to details of my life. they police my thoughts. they use torture and conditioning against me. they don't permit me to be anywhere. they target me in masses. they shun everything I do and do not allow my life to go anywhere. they don't permit me to do anything. they police everything I do and every fucking one of them is just another agent of the nazi thought-police. everything I write is just echoed by them. everything I don't write is treated as vulnerability and exploited. I'm so fucking sick of stupid pieces of shit telling me what I am allowed to do all the time. they possess absolutely no capacity to understand a single thing or to recognize any reason, and I always have to live by their dictates because they are tremendously numerous and work together in masses and single me out and target me as a society and drain everything in my life while having ownership of everything themselves and exploiting every such thing in the manner of prison-guards and in the names of the stupidest and most hypocritical bullshit. they've been policing me as a society for many years and policing my thoughts by endless torture, and then policing me in the name of their humanity.

everyone I encounter is another of these idiotic pieces of shit, and they seem to feel entitled to tyrannize in masses over everything in my life. questioning the herd and questioning ideology is treated with much severity in this primordial society and is penalized by masses. large masses targeting an individual though is unanimously treated as very acceptable.

logic the pieces of shit will not acknowledge, but the prohibition of thought-crime is absolutely crucial to them.

it also seems I am increasingly out of favour with the pieces of shit that police me as a society and my freedoms just keep decreasing and decreasing as these rapists become more closely fixated on my every move as well as give themselves various excuses to treat me in various ways. certainly they are not going in the direction of permitting me to make a living, and so it might as well return to more mob-attacks and mind-rape by masses.

I am also not permitted to write anything about the destruction of writing and thinking caused by large masses targeting an individual. this is just more freedom than these pieces of shit will permit.

and of course they still refuse to comment on anything I write, but insist on inflicting punishments on me everywhere I go. I would prefer above all for them to be eradicated in masses, but I would prefer comments to penalties and punishments by society everywhere I go.

I don't go outside very often, because the nazi pieces of shit target and police me as a society, and every time I do go outside I am violated in so many ways and now am obliged to spend every moment devoting my life to these fucking parasites.

everywhere I go I am targeted by this disease. they won't admit to knowing who I am, but will use it against me that they know who I am. they police my thoughts and inflict punishments on me for my thoughts. if I write they can increase punishments on me for my thoughts in the name of punishing me for my writings. they don't allow me to be anywhere or do anything and also shun me and ensure that I have nowhere to go. they should be eradicated. they deny every single thing they do and then are able to reverse every single thing that's true, and just overlook that they are ganging up against me in masses. they inflict psychological torture against me and police my thoughts, and even call themselves humans and use this against me in any way they can. but they are pieces of shit. their treatment on me is based on my thoughts and they penalize me and inflict retributions on me for thoughts that I think. die in great masses.

moreover, they can permit themselves many things while permitting me very little, because there are great masses of these pieces of shit all targeting me.

and did anyone notice the way I spend day after day, year after year? no, they just overlook this, and persist in targeting me for any vulnerability to be found in my writings. how could I be speaking of my own life, when ideology dictates that I am living in a free and democratic society?

the pieces of shit target and police me as a society. everywhere I go are plenty more of these pieces of shit who are all the same and all targeting me. they act like they know me everywhere and in correspondense or retribution to every detail of my life. if I mention anything about them acting like they know me everywhere, this is used against me, but every time there is something in my life to be policed or exploited they will emerge from every corner and will use it against me that they know who I am and spy in masses on everything I do and determine their unanimous treatment of me everywhere I go by whether or not I am in favour today or not with the ominpresent thought-policing disease.

everywhere I go I am targeted by masses who all act like they know who I am and target me for every detail of my life on which they spy. I am not permitted freedoms because the nazi pieces of shit target and police me as a society and are fixated in masses on everything I do. I am not permitted to think. I am not permitted to have a point of view. all the freedoms I am told I have, I do not have, and if I exercise them this will be met with punishments by the nazi pieces of shit that target me in masses next time I go outside. they police my thoughts by means of torture. they don't let me use my senses or be in public. they target me in masses by the most hypocritical contexts and will unanimously overlook anything happening in this society. I am not permitted to question society or to question the herd without this being met with mass punishments next time I go outside. they will all tell me that I live in a democratic society, and will use this for further targeting as well. everyone I encounter is another of these pieces of shit.

sometimes I think that perhaps next time I go outside the nazi pieces of shit will relent, but every time I go outside I am targeted by the nazi pieces of shit. they police me and target me as a society and spy in masses on everything I do and if I am not in favour with them today there will be nowhere to go where this won't be met with retributions. they police me by the most hypocritical contexts, overlook every single thing happening around me and done by themselves, keep coming from whichever direction sees an opening, and target me in ways that are best protected by the collective and allow them to tell me that I am not allowed to stand up to the nazi society that is targeting me and then they further target me for targeting me. every time I exercise any freedom, I am quickly reminded that the nazi pieces of shit are targeting me as a society and are fixated on my every move in masses, and so I cannot be permitted any freedoms.

the nazi pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everywhere I go I am confronted by the thought-police and by those spying on my life. everywhere I go they single me out, work as a team against me, and police me by various harassments and tortures. these pieces of shit will deny knowing who I am, but they act like they know who I am and in correspondense or retribution to every detail of my life, and then they use this to subject me to various bullshit. if I mention them knowing who I am they'll use this against me, and when my life needs to be policed they'll use it against me that they do know who I am. the streets are filled with disease that will refuse to allow me to be alive. their treatment of me is determined by whether their spying on my life is in their favour or not today, and they subject me to all kinds of contexts that nicely overlook me being targeted by society and them being complicit in this. they don't allow me to be in public, to walk on the street, or to do anything. they police my thoughts by means of torture. they don't let me use my senses. any standing up to them is used by them for further targeting. they violate me in ways which can be camouflaged in my descriptions of these and then further target me for this. great masses are constantly ganging up against me in every way and then not allowing me to stand up to them. I am living in a nazi society.

while of course at all times everything I do is closely monitored by big brother and policed by various harassments, and every possible medium is used for this. and every component just keeps crawling into and exploiting every vulnerability that there is in anything, and often in ways that are difficult to describe: another vulnerability.

and they jump very swiftly from context to context at every moment and I'm always expected to keep up with it and suppress all sanity, while they just use one context and then immediately switch to target me for any reaction, and do this constantly and are able to come from every possible direction, and in correspondence to every moment of my life.

and if I go anywhere in society they will drive me out by harassment, guilt, or whatever necessary. if I then stay in the one place where I can be alone, they will not leave me alone for a second. they no longer need to deny that when they make me feel guilty it's for no other reason than driving me out of wherever I am, because now they are in stalking mode.

if I debate with them about my right to privacy, they will tell me that I have a right to privacy. they are obliged to tell me that I live in a democratic society and that I have many rights. they can't tell me that I have no right to privacy or no rights at all, so it's best for them to just actively infringe my rights all the time. then they can keep telling me that I have a right to privacy, as well as keep infringing my right to privacy, and all other rights. it works great for them.

reason will do absolutely nothing and it does not deter them in the least. they always have lots of numbers and force and are restricted not morally nor legally. they have an obligation to always prove to me that they are nazis and that I can be treated in any way by them, and that reason can only be used against those capable of it.

and they leave absolutely no space for a thinking being to exist. obviously they are not capable of understanding anything, and so they just keep preying on my ability to understand, to see, to consider different points of view, and to be critical of myself. they of course are the ones that come in the names of all these things, and they will use it against me that they put me in impossible positions and are able to condemn me for lack of these things due to me being able to acknowledge the nature of this society, and yet it's constantly demonstrated that it's the other way around and that they are incapable of these things and only prey on my capability for these things.

and they keep pestering and pestering day after day and don't relent. if I react they'll immediately use this to target me by guilt. the private sector will not leave me alone if I lock myself in my house due to being targeted by society, while denying everything happening in my life. if I go outside I have to worry about being targeted by society. they keep coming from whichever direction is best suited for attack, while no component will accommodate the ability to reason beyond what's required for targeting.

and of course they'll constantly try to make me sympathize with them, and then whoever I sympathize with will be next to go mad with power and expand its coercive involvement to more and more of my life. and they will insist and insist on their lies and will use any amount of force to make me accept things that don't make sense just to make them relent, and as soon as I do they can just return to being the icy assholes they've always been and remind me they have no interest other than preying on my life.

now I also know that if I express intelligence, this will immediately be met with force and brought down to their level, and if I express too little intelligence, well this justifies the full coercive involvement of big-brothers-inc. in my life. and there is also nothing else they'll permit me to do and will constantly ensure that I am isolated precisely in the ways which will allow them to collectively target me most effectively.

the pieces of shit constantly police me by various tortures and do not stop. often they will come up with some moral justifications to coercively involve themselves in my life, and then there is nothing to stop them and it's a scary situation. my right to privacy becomes unimportant when those that have been bringing death to everything with their involvement for many years take it to overrule my right to make decisions for myself in favour of them making decisions for me. they had not yet tried involving themselves in my life in any positive ways of course, but they keep insisting on involving themselves in my life nonetheless with or without my consent, especially when they are able to justify this by some morality. these can help them justify acts of mob-justice, tyrannical behaviours of the herd, and constant big-brotherly involvement in my life. they are of course the cause of all the conditions in my life which they come insistently in the name of being there to cure, and are willing to overlook any will of mine regarding these matters, and as I know they always end up doing so much more than just leaving you with more long-lasting traumas.

the pieces of shit involve themselves in everything I do at all times. they crawl into the process of writing and nest in every thinking process made vulnerable by any instance of writing, as well as any thoughts made vulnerable during the process of writing and the policing of which can be camouflaged by the fact of writing. if I stop writing they'll keep avenging themselves on me and coercing me to keep writing, as anything I do in fact only opens more doors for the thought-police. all thinking, as well as all movements, activities, and signs of life, are extremely restricted by the fact of thought-policing.

I was hoping that they'll be able to see that everything becomes stupid and meaningless because of them, but instead they've just gotten an increased taste in forcefully making everything stupid and meaningless. metallic weights are dropped on my head whenever I think of them, and whenever I express any intelligence or question any accepted truths the thought of them immediately arises and of my impending encounters with them. if I don't write anything, they police my thoughts, and if I do write, this interferes with them policing my thoughts, especially if I value what I write, and so they become increasingly brutal and ensure to destroy my ability to write.
I would be able to put up with a large amount of these things if I knew there was someone out there who wasn't one of them. if there isn't, then all communication is meaningless anyways. however, they certainly don't ever leave me alone, and so communication with them, while completely impossible, is constantly necessary.

the pieces of shit attach themselves to everything I do and just keep coming from whichever direction sees an opening.

writing has of course become completely meaningless when the pieces of shit that have been tyrannizing over me for many years had left me no direction other than to write about it, then kept preying and preying on me for my writings and becoming coercively involved in the process of me writing anything against them.

it also seems that the pieces of shit are becoming involved in my life with ever increasing coercion now. it figures that because I am surrounded and targeted by these nazis who certainly do not permit anything positive to ever happen, that they may as well just increase and increase their coercive and unpleasant involvement in more and more details of my life. I cannot have freedoms or have anything because of this disease, and so they might as well police every detail of my life more heavily. if I write anything about it, they also become involved in the thoughts I think when writing and inflict punishments on me for my thoughts as well as for any restrictions on my writings caused by their policing of my life. what a fucking disease.

the rapist pieces of shit make me pay attention to them so they can not allow me to pay attention to them and police the process of thinking involved in paying attention to them by means of the senses required to accomplish this. they crawl into every process of thinking as they crawl into everything else. if I just don't pay attention to them, or block my ears against them, this will only enable them to target me for this from a different angle. they are parasites, and they police every detail of my life.

they also always go out of their way to not consider me (that is, certainly to consider me, for purposes of making things as unfavourable to me as possible). then they demand my consideration, and if I disobey them they can utilize the great numbers of the public against me as well.

the pieces of shit also become coercively involved in every aspect of the process of writing, and every thinking process that arises from the process of writing, and every thinking process that arises from being targeted by them for my writings. they obviously are not there to understand but to prey. if I don't write they'll immediately prey on me for the thoughts I am thinking or avenge themselves on me for my past writings. these pieces of shit have been tyrannizing over me for many years, and are also always there to demand conformity to herd-activities and herd-doctrines and standards of propriety that overlook every single thing happening around me and done by themselves, and to penalize or punish any unwillingness or inability to live by their insane and unreasonable standards, while monitoring every detail of my life.

the pieces of shit also become involved in my thoughts and inflict punishments on me for my thoughts.

the pieces of shit just increase and increase their coercive involvement in my life until they can drive me out of life, because they have already driven me out of everything and everywhere else. they police my thoughts and my senses by means of torture and treat anything I write as instructions, which they will insist on following at any cost. they also have a habit of telling me how wonderful they are and corroborating each other and using this for further targeting. what a fucking disease they are.

the pieces of shit police me all the time and monitor me at all times and by means of large numbers of them, they are pieces of shit. they don't let me even pay attention to them and police my thoughts and senses by means of torture, and keep forcing me to deal with them so they can do precisely this. what fucking pieces of shit.

the rapist pieces of shit involve themselves in all my activities at all times and inflict punishments on me for them, because they are rapists.

the rapist pieces of shit keep working and working on my senses and do not allow me to think or to do anything and police me by psychological, sensory, and physical torture non-stop year after year, because they are a bunch of rapists.

the rapist pieces of shit also police my thoughts by means of incessant torture.

the pieces of shit constantly police me by various tortures and become coercively involved in my thoughts and activities at every moment.

every way I move I am constantly policed by tortures and mind-rape by the collective. they'll always try to make me feel moral obligations to them in which the acceptance of truths that don't make sense is implicit, and they always use these for petty advantages and to police my thoughts by torture. they prey on my thoughts and don't allow me to pay attention to them, they work as a team to protect each other and to make useless any defenses against them, they will be extremely insistent with their lies and will leave no way to interact with them other than by partial acceptance of the ideology and will use any questioning of accepted truths for purposes of torture and mind-rape, and then they also assume the role of those who are testing you: either testing your humanity in overlooking their extreme inhumanity and unquestioningly accepting manipulations which they use solely for sadistic purposes, or also testing your ability not to believe their lies and to somehow put up with them while they don't allow you to even think: whichever angle is more convenient at any moment to test you from.
as said, they become coercively involved in the process of thinking and don't allow you to even pay attention to them. not only will they use pressures of the herd, but will use tremendous amounts of coercion and thought-rape to debilitate your ability to think critically or to think at all in their presense. anything you write about it is just intensified, punished, or used for various sadistic purposes. they team up against you in all ways in which numbers can team up against an individual. and everywhere I go is a sea of these parasites who are all targeting me. year after year they hammer and hammer at your thoughts with relentless torture and rape and pursue you everywhere with this and use it to cripple every aspect of your life. eventually you try to build walls with your thoughts, which they use to team up against you and take advantage of your thoughts and as an opportunity to increase arbitrary law. the only way to protect yourself against this unyielding torture and thought-rape is to be auditory in the ways in which they are against them, and if you are in enclosed places with large numbers of them, or anywhere else around them for that matter, they will unanimously overlook anything done by themselves and just use this for further singling you out and teaming up against you in every way. they will hammer and hammer at your thoughts until it becomes unendurable, and the instant you react every single thing they have done is immediately erased and any reaction is used for further targeting by every one of these leeches who will all participate and who are all the same. you are the one being targeted by the parasite-collective, and this is all their logic will accomodate.

at all times large numbers of them are fixated on my every move, and so I cannot be permitted freedoms, and I cannot be permitted to think or to exist.

the pieces of shit constantly police me by sensory and other torture every way I turn. unfortunately they are collectively set on increasing rape and torture now, as well as allowing me ever decreasing privacy in the only place in this society where I can have a locked door separating me from them, and so of course they will all do the same things at the same time as well as work as a team to create conditions that won't allow me to put up any sort of a fight against them. they have decided to collectively attack me now and all do the same things, if I describe any of the instances, every one of them will be able to further target me, while none will acknowledge that many of its identicals have all been simultaneously acting in the same ways. my life is shitty because the pieces of shit police me and target me as a collective, but it becomes even shittier at those times when the collective decides to drastically increase rape and torture and respect no sign of life, and I've learned to have to put up with these occasional waves when these pieces of shit just get completely out of control. it has been established that they do absolutely no good, as well as are incapable of understanding anything, as well as infringe every human right that can possibly be infringed, and so another of these shitty waves has to come now because I've recognized these things, and I will just have absolutely no rights now.

year after year society singles you out, targets you incessantly, teams up against you everywhere you go, and keeps you isolated. whichever way you move you will only encounter more prison bars, everyone you encounter is another spy for the thought-police, they all demand for you to live by impossible lies and use it against you if you are unable to shrink to the level of their nothing, and they inflict torture and mind-rape on you whenever you move around within society in any way. you are forced into isolation, and isolation is by far the better alternative to having any interaction with them, but then they use every effect of the isolation for futher torture as well as futher isolation which will enable further torture.
in your many attempts to befriend them in the past, they had always gone out of their way to reject you, single you out, gang up against you, and to ensure that communication cannot be accomplished with them, because this helps them to always isolate you and prey on you as a collective. they are just there to police you and to use every detail of your life against you, as well as overlook every single thing happening around you and then hold you to impossible standards and use every effect of targeting you for further targeting. obviously by now I make more efforts to avoid them than to befriend them, and then they hold me to primordial doctrines of the herd and of anti-solitude, which of course they use for no other purpose than further targeting and policing.

I did not expect this to happen, but they have crawled into the process of writing again. if the only way to deal with my writings being used for purposes of torture is by dumbing them down, they'll instantaneously come from a different angle to use this against me. then if the level of intelligence increases again, this is immediately used for purposes of torture again. at least communication with them is not meaningless.

they don't allow me to question them in their presense, and force me to develop a double-personality in order to deal with their insistent lies, and then they use this to try to destroy the only outlet available to me to express myself with honesty. they will absolutely not relent with their lies and will make it impossible for a thinking being to exist in their presense, and then will use whatever disease has to be developed from trying to deal with this situation to pursue me and destroy other things in my life.

the pieces of shit do not respond to logic, and overlook anything I write that can work favourably for me in any way or is of any intelligence, but they always become coercively involved in the process of writing, police my writings, and use my writings to police the rest of my life. writing is supposed to be an instrument, but it's the very process of writing on which they prey. I don't exactly have anywhere in this society where I can go, everywhere I turn are more walls, all I can do is write about it, and then they prey on me for my writings and use my writings to further police my life, to 'track down' my every move, and as a cover for policing other things that are not in the public realm, such as activities inside my house and thoughts that I think, which they police anyways but now have an opportunity to intensify the policing of these things in the name of policing my writings, while overlooking anything I write that has any value other than as being used to police me. the focus becomes the process of writing, while they persist in all the same ways.