Saturday, April 14, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Update
the cctv treatment:
was actually the norm between 2001-2007 (I find it helpful to think about time). I would do or say something in semi-privacy/relative privacy/total privacy, and the next day large masses of the population would react to it, get angry at me for something I did or said in privacy etc. this kept going without any sort of self-criticism until 2007 (which was the first time I had ever willingly made public any detail about myself), at which point things started to get a little bit more sophisticated.
other things:
there was the one thing the one day and I didn't give it any significance. something happened on the street or whatever. again, in aspects concerning me, you seem to know what I'm doing inside my house, knock at the door accordingly, do things on the street accordingly etc.
then the next day unrelatedly suddenly 14th division thinks I witnessed something in an area I hadn't even been to around that time, and I had never had this incident occur. I'm not frightened, and I'm not going to use any derogatory terms, I just wish you would get more organized so one doesn't get the wrong impression.
regarding things I am being accused of:
no one has accused me of anything. I can't reference too many things myself whenever I want to make some case, but it would be quite easy for you to get yourselves in multiples and make some accusation, and then you don't have to worry about sounding crazy, and one would be able to also respond to it. you don't seem interested in doing that.
things I'm doing:
quite busy actually, mostly doing things that don't have much of a social aspect, so not much to talk about. don't know how I would measure up in most (in person) conversations, but can do that if there's a point.
the cctv treatment:
was actually the norm between 2001-2007 (I find it helpful to think about time). I would do or say something in semi-privacy/relative privacy/total privacy, and the next day large masses of the population would react to it, get angry at me for something I did or said in privacy etc. this kept going without any sort of self-criticism until 2007 (which was the first time I had ever willingly made public any detail about myself), at which point things started to get a little bit more sophisticated.
other things:
there was the one thing the one day and I didn't give it any significance. something happened on the street or whatever. again, in aspects concerning me, you seem to know what I'm doing inside my house, knock at the door accordingly, do things on the street accordingly etc.
then the next day unrelatedly suddenly 14th division thinks I witnessed something in an area I hadn't even been to around that time, and I had never had this incident occur. I'm not frightened, and I'm not going to use any derogatory terms, I just wish you would get more organized so one doesn't get the wrong impression.
regarding things I am being accused of:
no one has accused me of anything. I can't reference too many things myself whenever I want to make some case, but it would be quite easy for you to get yourselves in multiples and make some accusation, and then you don't have to worry about sounding crazy, and one would be able to also respond to it. you don't seem interested in doing that.
things I'm doing:
quite busy actually, mostly doing things that don't have much of a social aspect, so not much to talk about. don't know how I would measure up in most (in person) conversations, but can do that if there's a point.
Friday, February 24, 2012
I spend much time, more than I'd like to, reading things on the internet, and it's sure difficult to ever get a word in. I wish I could just go and personalize my things to the same guy that everyone else is personalizing their things to, and then it would be pretty easy.
it's not all bad though. I can write a bit more freely now and don't have to worry about proving any knowledge to anyone. You're obviously watching my internet activities very closely and you know what I look up. It's an unfortunate thing because looking for knowledge becomes synonymous with communication on a large scale, and I can feel it's crappy or I can try to find it amusing.
The problem is that I don't see your side of it. I used to get so angry whenever picking up my local newspaper and have all this stuff personalized to me (not to mention more major media). But what about you? You pick up your newspaper and all these things are just personalized to this fucking guy. It must bother you like hell. If I was you I'd just resent this guy like crazy, follow him around, abandon my own life, and when I can't justify my continued involvement in his life anymore just start manufacturing reasons.
You want to call it a society and then not act like one: there's a contradiction there and your existence cannot be justified.
it's not all bad though. I can write a bit more freely now and don't have to worry about proving any knowledge to anyone. You're obviously watching my internet activities very closely and you know what I look up. It's an unfortunate thing because looking for knowledge becomes synonymous with communication on a large scale, and I can feel it's crappy or I can try to find it amusing.
The problem is that I don't see your side of it. I used to get so angry whenever picking up my local newspaper and have all this stuff personalized to me (not to mention more major media). But what about you? You pick up your newspaper and all these things are just personalized to this fucking guy. It must bother you like hell. If I was you I'd just resent this guy like crazy, follow him around, abandon my own life, and when I can't justify my continued involvement in his life anymore just start manufacturing reasons.
You want to call it a society and then not act like one: there's a contradiction there and your existence cannot be justified.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Update
Sorry, I needed some time to recover, as I have been feeling very devastated. I need constant companionship you see, and don’t know what to do without it.
Much the same types of things, probably worse than usual, although little that there’s a point in talking about. Society is basically a joke and everyone’s in on it. Parents. It sucks.
A clarification: 3 months ago before going to the pharmacy I went to get my passport and then wrote an angry post shortly before arriving at the pharmacy. It was meant for the mob I had encountered in the passport office. There are some that seemed ill-disposed towards me in the pharmacy now, or maybe for other reasons. Man, my blood-pressure is suddenly going through the fucking roof! No, I am not accusing anyone of anything. That’s the whole thing: the body plays games, the body is a part of it.
Other than that, writing, working, many things I don’t make public. Trying to get into writing movie reviews and maybe other things, and see where that goes.
Will keep you updated from time to time.
Sorry, I needed some time to recover, as I have been feeling very devastated. I need constant companionship you see, and don’t know what to do without it.
Much the same types of things, probably worse than usual, although little that there’s a point in talking about. Society is basically a joke and everyone’s in on it. Parents. It sucks.
A clarification: 3 months ago before going to the pharmacy I went to get my passport and then wrote an angry post shortly before arriving at the pharmacy. It was meant for the mob I had encountered in the passport office. There are some that seemed ill-disposed towards me in the pharmacy now, or maybe for other reasons. Man, my blood-pressure is suddenly going through the fucking roof! No, I am not accusing anyone of anything. That’s the whole thing: the body plays games, the body is a part of it.
Other than that, writing, working, many things I don’t make public. Trying to get into writing movie reviews and maybe other things, and see where that goes.
Will keep you updated from time to time.
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