Can’t make crappy world sound good

So yes, I can’t log into a website without being severely harassed. This shit just keeps going and furthermore everywhere I turn there are very many things that are directed at me. Everyone seems to not notice, or rather fight to change the subject by trying to overwhelm me by the fact of their very large numbers acting in uniformity, or their disses that don’t seem to desire any response from me but only to be ‘gotten in’. And while everything that happens in my life is very consistently extremely shitty, I have to make sure that I don’t appear to be trying to arouse anyone’s sympathy, or else it will be very unpleasant next time I have to encounter a humanoid, as this has become forbidden by the collective intelligence (when I’m only stating the facts of my life).
And whenever anything very obvious presents itself to me it has to always be accompanied by some sort of harassment, so as to be more overwhelming than the obvious thing. And everything is of course done in the name of something else, and I guess some of the contrasts between what something is and what it calls itself are funnier than others. And they get more sophisticated over time and yet I still feel, not unfoundedly I think although not always in complete fairness to everyone, that if I make any judgment about them to their face that is too complex, I will immediately regret it. And when speaking with them I can’t really bring up anything that’s happening in my life, and even when some of them very insistently take part in these things, they’ll never actually acknowledge any of them. And no matter what happens and how obvious, they’ll then just speak, often very eloquently, of some other world that’s not this one, and that indeed sounds so much nicer than this crap of a world where all randomness has been eliminated, everyone knows you everywhere and you can’t really do anything, and everyone works to serve the hive-mind while enhancing their sophistication so as to allow them to keep going after the same things and to overlook the same things.

I’ve read over everything I wrote recently. It’s all there. It always makes me feel like I owe further explanations when immediately afterwards, in encounters, there are those that have vehemently ‘not been convinced’. But they can’t be convinced. They’re biased and insane and constantly go to ridiculous lengths to justify treating me in the ways they are pre-inclined to. They’ll overlook anything, make up anything, play any strategic role, and then don’t understand anything. Would one believe there are still those whose logic is ‘the more of us there are, the more justice is ensured!’ And if a great number of them vouches for the truth of something – then it must definitely be true! So hopeless.

there seems to be an insistence that big computer companies become playfully involved in anything I try to do, and jokingly flex their muscles, in ways that are real, but are done jokingly.