first, they leave you for dead and ensure that you cannot be permitted anything and are always excluded from everything. then, they ensure that there is never a single instance of me being able to go outside without some piece of shit taking some bite. when one is left for dead and has nowhere to turn and is permitted nothing, all one can do is watch every bite fester without there being anything to replace it. then, they can treat my every breath as a very great occurrence in exploitation of this and use this to further restrict my presence anywhere in society.
I'm sick of these pigs and I wish they would die.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. they treat me like I'm famous and use this to police my life, but they don't acknowledge me as famous and all they ever acknowledge me as is a misfit, someone with inappropriate views and inappropriate thoughts, someone not dressed appropriately or not behaving appropriately, or someone not entitled to make judgments and decisions and needing their forced assistance despite not welcoming it in any way.
anything I try to do with my life that's positive is shunned, but there is never any effort they are not willing to make for purposes of policing my life.
everywhere I go I am picked on and given special treatment by pieces of shit not capable of minding their own business, and I have to lock myself in my house to avoid them, and then whenever going outside I have to keep trying to find different places to go because there isn't any place I can go to for very long before starting to be made to feel unwelcome, but they are all the same no matter where I go and are all set on targeting me and driving me out of wherever I am.
ideologically, every single thing has been arranged to accommodate the mob and to work against the individual standing up to the mob.
in the life I am living, it has come to be acceptable as something casual that when encountering them, it is the business of a piece of shit to tell me where I am allowed to go and what I am allowed to do, and it is the business of a piece of shit to inflict retributions on me for thoughts that I think. (they also inflict retributions on me for every other detail of my life).
it is a very regular occurence for me to encounter someone I have never seen before and have no particular ill will against, and then having to endure very personalized retributions against me by this someone for something else in my life.
I am always outnumbered and always the target no matter where I go and no matter what I do. they are a collective and tyrannize over me as a collective. nothing particular can ever be specified, as the entire collective will converge on me if any such vulnerability is exposed. no one else is subjected to such restrictions.
any will to communicate intelligently will always come to a rot when having to encounter them and endure their exploitations of vulnerabilities.

in a situation of extreme inequality, somehow it's ingrained as inextricable that every single thing I write serves as an umbrella for the numerous beings that are set on targeting me. and when they are set on targeting me, not only will they nest in everything I write every time, but this standard of inextricability proves to be inapplicable. non-existential beings protect themselves by my every existential problem, and this of course ends up creating ever more existential problems. and their insistence on targeting me in large masses, and their insistence on lying about everything, and the situation of extreme inequality and endless guns pointed at one person, and the obsessive application of a logic used precisely for purposes contradictory to this logic, all end up creating ever more existential problems, in which non-existential beings will nest and by which they will justify extreme inequality: my every move being very closely monitored, every detail of my life being swiftly met with retributions, everyone I encounter another prison wall and member of the team against me, and nothing in my life being permitted.

Everything is curved in a very particular direction, and this curve ensures the future curving of anything that may be attempted to be built on it. If I do nothing to contribute to the curving, I will just be under persistent attack in accordance to this curve which will not stop until I stand up for myself, at which point the curving will immediately be attributed as emanating from me, due to the requirements of the curve.
Moreover, everything is covered over by a false grid of equality that is there to protect and camouflage the most extreme inequality. Everyone is there to corroborate everyone else and every hand is there to wash every other. Everything is protected by deniability and ambiguity and often hidden under things dismissible as mundane. Everyone is very obtuse while everything is set in their advantage. If anything, however obvious, protects itself by deniability, however dubious, it will always have an entire army to protect its deniability against eyes that are able to see.

I always have to justify everything to the collective, while the collective cannot admit to a single thing. they are non-humans, and shouldn't even be there, and I acknowledge this. however, practically it's precisely the other way around: they treat me in every way in which I should be treating them, and accuse me of everything they do and take credit for everything I do. if I acknowledge what they are, this only gives them an excuse to treat me in the ways they've always treated me anyways, because I have now contradicted their lies about themselves and so have given them occasion for 'retribution'. I've always treated them much better than they treated me, and they just exploited this. at this point I try to treat them in the same way that they treat me, but still they have the advantage of having no conscience, experiencing no doubts, being a block and always there to jump to the defense of each other against me, having no selves to get in their way and being permitted to contradict themselves endlessly without having to account for anything, and having infinite knowledge about my life without there being anything to be known about them.
they always go out of their way to exclude me and to permit themselves freedoms they don't permit me. it's ok for them to express emotions (which they don't have), and it's ok for them to quarrel and to question society, but it's always a seperate case if I do these things and immediately the antibodies are released against me. they are simply the police, in very great numbers, and disguised as regular people. they are there to police me, to tell me what I'm allowed to do, where I'm allowed to go, what I'm allowed to say, what I'm allowed to think, and what I'm allowed to feel at all times. they are permitted to do whatever they want, and just go out of their way to always exclude me and not permit me the freedoms they are permitted. it's ok for them to question society all they want, but the instant I do anything of the sort in their presense, those I have been listening to questioning society will tell me that questioning society is not something acceptable when done by myself. if I write about it, the entire public can crack down on me.
every exploitation is taken to an extreme where it's able to protect itself by some illusion of equality. if they always exclude me, pick on me, and team up against me, this is all balanced out by them lying about it. then they can protect their double-standards towards me under the double standard that is me being honest about what's around me within the context of their lies. and of course they never fail to take those additional bites by invoking their prominent philosophies that attribute every single thing to the individual within the context of a neutral world, which couldn't be more out of context. and so everything they relentlessly insist on year after year is just erased from existence, and I have after all just brought it all on myself, which is nicely insulting when coming from the mouths of those that have rather insisted on treating me in these ways for a very long time.

because they are incapable of admitting to a single thing they do and of seeing a single thing that's happening around and done by themselves, then any straightforwardness on my part is categorized as a theory and subjected to the standards of theoretical consistency (rather than existential consistency).
I don't extend the umbrella of anything I say over to them because they are not existent beings. I am subjected to both contexts and have to live by both contexts. when I go outside, they are of course everywhere, which wouldn't be a problem if they were the types of beings capable of minding their own business, but is a problem when they are the types of beings that are there to police me as a society. when I go to the store, I of course have to pay for anything I want, and so the part of me having to pay is there, but the part of me being able to have money is not there because the umbrella has been extended over to them in that selective way: they can't be expected to let me have money, but they certainly require money from me if I would like to buy anything.
they would like to both act like they know me everywhere and use this to police my life, as well as deny knowing who I am and use it against me if I mention anything about this. they would like to justify arbitrary law and policing my thoughts because they are non-entities that cannot be held accountable to anything, but the streets have to always be packed with them despite them being non-entities. I have to live by their nonsensical laws and within their nonsensical system, and they use every facet of the system in personalized ways against me while I must observe the utmost fairness towards them in accordance to what this personalized system likes to call itself.
I have to deal with and live with their every contradiction, and these are not of a nature where I may have the luxury of going out to observe the magnificent contradictions of these insane beings, but of a nature where these contradictions are specifically designed to cut in every way into my life and to make it unreasonable for a living and thinking being to exist. then, they put me in the spotlight, attribute to me everything they are not capable of admitting to, and then subject me to the standards of a non-living thing that cannot be affected by its surroundings and cannot even acknowledge its surroundings as it must be in full perfection in-itself at every moment.

the logic of equality: if there is a car, then I must be a car, or if I'm not then neither is the car.
and if they make me acknowledge them as people while targeting me as a society, I might subject them to the standards of people to see how they measure up.

communication must be reduced to the lowest denominator, otherwise it's not communication. and so, communication ends up being a good method for them to prey.

and as always, whenever I am not in the midst of devoting my every moment fully to them there will just be these virus invasions of my life by a number of pieces of shit simultaneously. every single thing I write that is explanatory will be overlooked and pieces of shit will attack vulnerabilities despite all explanations.
if everything is reduced to nothing more than abstract formulations, then the actuality of anything is hidden behind words which are all equal. a large army is teaming up against one person, non-stop, year after year, policing the person's life and draining the person's life. as soon as I walk out the door, the first thing I encounter is a piece of shit involving itself in my life, and everything else I encounter is more pieces of shit involving themselves in my life. they all treat me in very personalized ways everywhere I go. I cannot do a single thing without this being met with consequences next time I go outside. everyone acts like they know me everywhere I go. everything I do is shunned. then they subject me to the standards of someone who is very famous and wealthy and powerful, and target me for my every word in accordance to these standards, while teaming up against me and targeting me as a society and barely allowing me to have any money at all and ensuring to always do everything to disempower me morally.
any mention of electric shocks to my body is met with their disapproval. any mention of me being shunned is met with their disapproval. any mention of them acting like they know me everywhere is met with their disapproval. these pieces of shit really care and are very much all the wonderful things they like to call themselves. every single thing they do is ensured to always be protected by deniability and ambiguity, and then they target me in personalized ways in accordance to this deniability. anything I say is reduced to a formulation which they'll use against me in out of context ways. if they are out to target me no matter what, and I associate them with what they are, within the context of their deniability I would be associating them with what they are not, which can have drastic effects when they all act like they know me everywhere I go. there is no better way to word this. I wish they were capable of admitting to a single thing they do.
then they are protected by this and can go out of their way to associate me with whatever they want, and restrict my freedoms accordingly. all I try to do is survive while being targeted and teamed up against by an entire society. if my life has been reduced to the point of me locking myself in my house, then stepping outside of my house will be treated as an initiation of aggression. whatever they reduce your life to, they never see any problem with it but just take it from there and see what more they can reduce in your life.
let's say the psychological effects of me having been treated in these ways by society for years was suddenly visible to those targeting me as a society and each and every spy was made to feel restricted in my presense while I of course as always have to feel very restricted in the presense of each and every spy: what sort of comparison would it be between my entire life being extremely restricted all the time, and each and every one of them being restricted in my presense because they happen to know me everywhere I go? each and every one of them would be able to avoid me whenever they wish, while I can never avoid them no matter where I go. they team up against me and target me as a society and are all the same everywhere I go: it's one very large team against one single person. then they try to find places in thoughts where equality-logic can obscure perspective and just exploit this, while conveniently also there to police my thoughts.

the pieces of shit become coercively involved in my thoughts and in my activities inside my house.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everyone I encounter is another piece of shit agent that's there to spy on me and police my life. these pieces of shit police my thoughts and tell me what to do all the time. they tell me where I am allowed to be, where I am allowed to go, and what I am and am not allowed to do. everywhere I go I am singled out and picked on and every one of them is just there to team up against me.
they are never not there when something in my life needs to be policed or exploited, but I cannot be permitted to make a living because how can I be able to make a living when those policing me are just pieces of shit. and they'll also become coercively involved in the very process of me trying to do anything with my life and will go to any length to remind me that I cannot be permitted to do anything as long as they are pieces of shit.

the pieces of shit harass me everywhere and target and police me as a society. if I am out of favour with the pieces of shit, large numbers of pieces of shit will take it on themselves to go out of their way to harass me everywhere I go. they become coercively involved in every single thing I do. they become coercively involved in my thoughts. they tell me where I am allowed to go and where I am allowed to be. they gang up against me as a society. they treat me like I'm famous without acknowledging me as famous. they shun everything I do and permit nothing in my life. the only communication with them they permit is in the form that will allow them to best collectively prey on me. if I mention anything about being physically raped, they'll just contribute psychologically in every way they can. if I try to reason with them I have to be reminded that they are pieces of shit that are not there to understand but only to exploit every vulnerability. these pieces of shit call themselves humans, but they are a disease.

today it seems I am out of favour with the pieces of shit that police me as a society, which is funny because they act like they know me everywhere I go.
every detail of my life causes very large problems due to the pieces of shit acting like they know me everywhere I go and attaching themselves to everything I do.

big brother is a piece of shit that inflicts electric shocks on my body, which have decided to significantly increase today. it tells me what I am allowed to do and what I am allowed to think at all times, and uses this and various other deterrents and punishments.

the pieces of shit police me as a society. they don't acknowledge me as famous, and they shun everything I do, but they treat me like I'm famous and use this to police my life.

if there is any vulnerability in me or in my writings or anything I've written that's easy to dismiss and exploit, this will have consequences next time I go outside. often I dread going outside because of this. they themselves correspond to every vulnerability in my life in coercive ways. they target me as a society, act like they know me everywhere I go, single me out and pick on me everywhere I go, team up against me at every opportunity, spy on my life, permit nothing in my life, and go out of their way to always exclude me and to make the conditions of my life as excruciating as possible. then, because I must be bound by standards of equality towards them while they are not bound by standards of equality towards me, then things like memory, caution, and thinking in general, infringe on them in the same ways that they, with their entire being, infringe on me: they superimpose themselves on my life and then subject me to standards of 3D space without allowing such space.
they have been treating me very abusively for many years and have created many traumas. I don't like them and I don't enjoy it when they come near me. I associate them with everything that one victimized by abuse will associate with the figure of abuse responsible. but they must proceed in the same ways, and so the inevitable existential consequences of being treated in these ways are just exploited.

They are just extremely stupid and team up against me in large masses no matter where I go. They are there to enforce the truth of all the things they are not capable of questioning in personalized ways against me in correspondence to every breath I take. There is not a single thing I can do that won’t be met with retributions, and every detail of my life is very closely monitored, and so there must be some sort of justice in that. Is there anyone else who is capable of saying that they are treated so justly? They don’t know a single thing from experience but are always very forthcoming in telling me what I’m allowed to do and knowing better what I should do.
The retributions they inflict on me for every detail of my life everywhere I go are on the level of their capacity to comprehend. If they create massive problems in my life, they can then inflict retributions on me for the problems they create. If they do something and then lie about it, they can then inflict retributions on me for the fact that the things they do bother me and create massive problems in my life despite them lying about it. The funniest thing is that them lying about it actually makes it even worse, and doesn’t help in any way.
And their logic seems to be that if something bad is done to me, it means that I must deserve it, because nothing bad is capable of happening to someone, who is me, unless I deserve it. I wonder in what multitudes they would attack me if I was to make such a crude judgment. Meanwhile, they never get a single thing that’s coming to them and just keep getting away with this shit year after year.
If they attach themselves coercively to every single thing I do, then everything I do will be a great problem to them and everything they do will be a great problem to me. Then they can twist this against me and suggest that my consciousness attaches itself to their actions and they are tyrannized over by my consciousness (whether I express it or not) as they happen to know me intimately everywhere I go. Or they’ll arrange everything in correspondence to descriptions I give in ways that will make my descriptions appear as reversed against me. Or they'll cripple by punishments things in my life and then protect their exploitations as reflections of the traumas created by this.
Nano-beings, in large numbers, can create very large problems. Everything is restricted and everything is brought to paralysis. Everything they do is protected by the problems they create, and they exploit fairness to them and disguise everything they do in every shadow of every such problem.

whenever I start writing, the pieces of shit again become coercively involved in the process of writing in the most destructive ways. they attach themselves coercively to everything I do and police my life. they also exploit every thought that I think in the most cold blooded manner. they permit nothing in my life and keep forcing me into positions that will enable them to prey on me most effectively. I must explain everything so as not to be viciously attacked, and then they prey on me for explaining by taking advantage of everything I write in coercive ways. and brutal and cold-blooded retributions are inflicted on me for things I merely think.
they exploit every exploitation and take it to extremes where they are able to attain some semblance of equality under which they are protected. the more I go into detail about it, the more brutal will be the results, because they attach themselves to everything I write and treat my writings as instructions. then, if I don't go into sufficient detail this will have brutal results as well. they prey on everything and police my life.
if I am violated in some way and then respond, they are then protected by this response and each of them is able to keep violating me precisely in the same way and then be immune against any further response, as any further response will keep being diverted towards the first instance.
if the iron-fist of the public comes crashing down on me, anyone I interact with is protected by this and able to exploit this.
if there is some big event, generally, no reference to any particular event, immediately invasions of my life will be increased to exploit that I am in the spotlight and they are not and are protected by deniability.
if they take environment-enhancement to an extreme and use it to police my life, this allows them to also treat my every breath as a tremendous cataclysm in exploitation of a false semblance of equality that's created.
if they are non-living things and I am a living thing, this allows them to treat me like a non-living thing when I don't treat them like non-living things, in exploitation of their lies and my existential position (although when they don't treat me like a living thing often I can't treat them like living things either, not because I acknowledge them as non-living things but because they don't treat me like a living thing).
in dealings with them, if I do anything with good intentions, they'll accuse me of the opposite to punish me for any good intentions, and will never let any such thing go without punishment. same for whenever I falsely read any good intentions into anything they do. (this type of thing can also disguise itself as a very mundane human thing, although it's done quite intentionally and is designed to constantly kill my hope and spirit).
everything is arranged just so and filled with various traps, and then I am policed by these very numerous and very obtuse beings that just revolve around me and are there to make me miserable.
they usurp and exploit every existential trait and use the impostoring of these precisely to police my every breath as well as to exploit these very existential workings when they occur in me, and often force me precisely into these elaborately designed existential positions that allow for maximum exploitation.

anyways, I can write whatever I want, and anyone in the public that inflicts retributions on me for things I write is a nazi pig that should be shot in the face.

when speaking with any of them, generally, it's pretty easy to see through their bullshit and I'm able to outargue any of them. and so, anyone I speak with will make it their first business to put restrictions on what I'm allowed to say in their presense. I don't put restrictions on what they're allowed to say because I don't make it my business to tell anyone what they're allowed to say. and so, I'm not permitted to stand up to them and to express myself freely, while they're permitted to do whatever they want, and then this is exploited and used to pick on me more and reduce anything I have to say to irrelevance that seems to only increase the more I don't express myself. all I can do is keep trying to prove to them that I am reasonable and able to make reasonable judgments, and the more I do that the more patronizingly I am treated and the more I am taken advantage of.

I don't think that they are very reasonable or very sane, they are just very numerous and have everything set in their advantage.

and if they turn themselves into mirrors or distortion-mirrors, they are then immune. and yet they are exploitation-driven-beings that operate as a virus and in very large numbers. even if the mirrors are not distortion-mirrors, it's a distortion not to acknowledge a hall of mirrors as a hall of mirrors. and then there is the authority of a mirror, and if you acknowledge it as a mirror you are only empowering it against yourself, and yet it may very well be an exploitation- or distortion-mirror.

I've noticed that I never really tell anyone what to do, but just constantly have to practice defenses against the very things they relentlessly exploit and then explicitly tell me what to do about 'in retribution' to the fact that it bothers me.
if I don't notice, no one will, and I will be taken advantage of for not noticing.
also, because I'm being targeted by society, then anything I say about things being done to me is ultra-magnified and treated as a tremendous yell for consideration that's ultra-audible and yet put in a context of these things not being done to me. and then they even exploit consideration in every possible way and just use it to further police me. or at more honest times they'll just be completely deaf to anything I say and if I pretty much have to yell it will do absolutely nothing.
and I'm sure the nano-beings will find something to exploit in what I'd just written.
(often I'm not explicitly told what to do either, for instance, it's just met with an electric shock to my body. and often the only way to communicate with them is on their level, via noises etc).

everyone is on the same team. there is no one with any sense of perspective, any ability to remember anything, any ability to see anything, or any ability to do anything other than attack vulnerabilities. if I don't word something perfectly, this will be met with consequences next time I go outside, as no one really tries to understand anything but everyone only looks for vulnerabilities to attack. if I stand up to any member of the team, this will be met with the disapproval of every other member of the team. singling anyone out is not treated as acceptable for me to do by the society that targets me and always keeps me isolated and singled out and gangs up against me in masses and then subjects my every breath to every possible application of equality-logic and targets me by it.
these pieces of shit tell me where I am allowed to go, what I am allowed to do, what I am allowed to think, and what I am allowed to feel at all times. they permit nothing in my life and drain my life and leave me for dead year after year and then excessively police every single thing I do and are restricted not by any sanity. verily, I don't like it when these pieces of shit get very close to me, and would prefer it if they weren't there. then, the pieces of shit are protected by punishing me for the way they make me feel towards them. it's all equal.

the pieces of shit also become coercively involved in my thoughts and my emotions when walking on the street. obviously this makes it quite excruciating to walk on the street. the instant I let down my guard in any way, quickly a piece of shit will take advantage of it and inflict a corresponding sting.

went outside today. it seems the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everyone just keeps attacking whenever there is any vulnerability. if I'm treated unfairly, everyone will just agree with it and corroborate each other. they just gang up against me as a society and everyone participates and then subjects me to bullshit standards of their justice and vengeance. they are a nazi disease.

moreover, everyone acts like they know me everywhere I go. this is a very big thing, and is not acknowledged as taking place at all. in the past they would relentlessly assimilate anything I would say about what's around me into something applicable within their context. they erase and mask every single thing around me and destroy any defenses against them.

they set up an elaborate context which they seal around everything I do and use to target me specifically, and within that context every single thing I say is precisely reversed against me. I contribute nothing to their fictional context, and my presence brings death to their fictional context.
having eyes is something that I find helpful, as I can see what's around me and see their tremendous inconsistencies. another helpful thing is having memory, because I remember precisely who put the first restrictions, who thrust the first knife, and who kept insisting and insisting on this until I finally responded. at this point there is no reconciliation, on their part because whenever I let down my guard they immediately insist on bringing it back to the path of targeting me, and on my part because I am not willing to trust them and to forget events recent and less recent.

I write because I'm always outnumbered in their presense. although if I didn't have to worry about restrictions being put on me in their presense I would be able to handle a large number of them. once they destroy my defenses and then themselves proceed in the same ways, my only recourse is writing about it or doing nothing and letting the poison fester. no matter what, everything feeds into the inevitable cycle.

another, unrelated point: they'll often just mirror everything I feel towards them and then treat me in reflection of the way they make me feel towards them, and all kinds of variations of this. the hall of mirrors and distortion-mirrors, has many mirrors, but it often doesn't take into account that it's a hall of mirrors.

the pieces of shit police my life. they attach themselves to everything I do and inflict corresponding retributions next time I encounter them. they police my thoughts and inflict retributions on me for thoughts that I think. they team up against me and always ensure to keep me isolated and targeted by them. they lie about every single thing and then project everything they do onto me to punish me for any honesty. they instigate fights and then forget their part in it the instant that I respond and prey on me for any response. they treat my every breath as being of great proportion and a great threat and detriment to them and arrange it so that co-existence cannot be tolerable to them or to me. they set up an elaborate context within which anything I say about what’s around me is reduced to irrelevance, and they seal this context around everything I do and use it as a body-suit and target me by this context and mask every single thing around me and reduce all honesty to irrelevance and protect themselves, and within this context they can call themselves many wonderful things while acting like cold-blooded Nazis.

big brother is a piece of shit that inflicts electric shocks on my body and tells me what to do all the time. whenever I go outside, everywhere in society everyone acts like they know me and becomes involved in my life in coercive ways.

somehow nothing ever changes and they just keep doing the same things. they respond to vulnerabilities and they always like to set me up for being attacked by large masses, while the large masses can of course make no distinctions and just respond to vulnerabilities as well. the only thing is that I always have to worry about next time I go outside, because while the large masses are not obliged to admit knowing who I am, they can attack me in large masses.
they set themselves up precisely in ways that exploit whatever set of circumstances happens to be in my life at the present, and it's just obvious to me that I can respond to what's around me when being treated unfairly, and then I find out that everything has been precisely set up for further targeting and it can culminate in being attacked by large masses (I haven't gone outside today, but am anticipating a possible eventuality). communication is not meaningless at all, and they are not a bunch of parasites who are just there to prey on me and to police my life at all.
moreover, speaking with them is difficult, and I am subjected to the utmost etiquette lest the conversation be brought to a halt. if I express any emotion the conversation can be brought to a halt. I end up preferring to write, and then I have to worry about being attacked by large masses, while anyone I interact with will just keep setting me up for being attacked by large masses.
everything in my life is extremely restricted due to being constantly preyed on by parasites. as I write this I receive electric shocks to my genitals.
moreover, in interactions with them, they will set up good cops to protect the bad cops, and so A and B will be the good cops, and then C will be the bad cop, although it can switch around. C is a vicious parasite that has been preying on me for years. A and B are of couse equally capable of turning against me when required, as is everyone else.

it's difficult to describe their nano-workings. in reference now specifically to personal interactions with them, although all facets use the same methods as all other facets whenever required.
they always make a lot of suggestions, and in fact have been exploiting this in very extreme ways, by means of all facets, for a long time. then, if they come in the name of being extremely well attuned to suggestions I make, intentionally or unintentionally, they are then protected by any defense I attempt against them, and indeed exploit this.
or they will come as self-proclaimed magnets of a distorted karma that is more akin to a curse and in fact ensures that justice can never occur, and take it to mirror everything I do and everything I think. every defense I attempt against them, they'll try to turn against me, and always in distorted and out of context ways. their motives are never pure, and they don't seem to be aware of themselves or of their part in anything at all. if I try to be fair to them they'll immediately take advantage of this. if I act to them in a manner similar to how they act to me, this will be taken out of context and used against me, as they are not accountable to a single thing they do.
more generally now:
I always have to be reminded that they are there to target and police me, and that injustice must always prevail when committed by large numbers masked by human faces. they lie about everything, cover everything they do by lies, castrate all intergrity and all reason, but they have everything on their side. they've arranged themselves precisely at my throat, always keep me in the position of being targeted and isolated by whatever justification required, prey on the most basic existential workings and often under the masquerade of their own existential workings, and then I can't say anything about it, or if I do, they can then act 'in retribution' to myself to 'teach me a lesson'. they target me in large numbers, use every weapon of a tailored society with tailored traps against me specifically, lie about every single thing, treat me like I'm extremely famous without acknowldedging me as famous, subject me to every possible nook of equality while ensuring inequality is always at an extreme, and all this in the name of their 'justice'.

moreover, whenever I put any thought into what I'm writing, this is usually treated as vulnerability and quickly met with an increase of harassment. this harassment is at those times of a more basic and more coercive sort, and so I'm forced to confront it, and on its own level. then, my writings have suddenly shifted and I can be preyed on by large masses under whatever justification.