they also exploit their deafness in various ways, and try to coerce me to overpower their deafness, which is not possible, and which they use for purposes of manipulation. their relation to me is never that of anything capable of any understanding, but always that of something which is there to police and to restrict, even communication.

Writings about The 1984 Police State. The primary methods of such a police state are psychological which in a non-physical setting can be taken to any extreme. the aim is the exploitation of the individual. The individual designated for exploitation is myself. Those around me are enforcers of The 1984 Police State and are there to keep me in line for no other purpose than keeping me in line. They utilize every facet of society against me and they are all impostors. They define what is sane and what is not sane, and have the power to lock me up. They employ the population for demoralization and for breaking me down and keeping me in line, always at specific times and always with ulterior motives. If I stand up to any one of them, everyone else will immediately rush to their defense, not verbally but as bodies at the defense of the police state and to quickly beat down and coerce to submission. They can exhibit a certain sanity within a certain context, but it’s just not the right context and is not consistent with what’s happening around and not consistent with their methods of subjecting me to it, and however many of them can say the same things, it means nothing when they are all the same and all there for the same reasons, and the world of which they speak is just not this one.
The vast majority of the things I am subjected to are merely suggested, and yet suggested in very obvious ways. It’s arranged in a very fucked up way, because they ensure that within their context I seem to be suggesting things that I explicitly say I don’t suggest, while in my context they suggest things that explicitly they’ll tell me they don’t suggest. It camouflages what’s true and what’s not.
The latest clampdown was focused exactly on things I’d already written about: my sanity, my ‘disease’ (I try to demonstrate that my usage of the word disease is more accurate), my breaches from their ‘common-sense’, media literacy/ illiteracy etc. Next it will be something else. As said, the vast majority of it is mere suggestion, and yet it’s always timed exactly to beat me to conformity the instant I step out of line. There are many mundane situations that can be unpleasant or torturous, but in the 1984 police state these are used exactly for purposes of torture and beating to submission.

http://shahargoldpolicestate.blogspot.com/2010/04/as-for-evidence.html
Evidence that I am being shunned. Nothing I write is ever challenged verbally, but only met with corresponding punishments and penalties by the population. Moreover, while there seems to be a refusal to challenge anything I write verbally, there will not ever be any way to avoid penalties and punishments when the infliction of these is required.

Excerpt from Machine Hell

The shit has been in full force for about 9 years, according to the measure of time available. Sure enough, it started the way phases always start: by some deception they’ll convince you that you have some special ability, some special instinct, have been chosen in some way, or in one way or another have suddenly aroused the intense interest of very large masses. This will usually come at times when your life couldn’t seem to get any worse, or you have been denying the nature of your surroundings in your thoughts, and so you’ll be more likely to buy into it. If you do buy into it, instantaneously these great masses begin to systematically take away your freedoms one after another, and it always ends up in total shit and with these great masses just beating you to the ground and teaming up against you and telling you what you are and are not allowed to do in regard to the most intimate details of your life. If you don’t buy into it, they’ll just use more force and will end up beating you to the ground and taking away your freedoms one after another by means of more force. This force can come in the form of intense mind rape, psychological punishments, punishments of the senses, conditioning and endless harassment, humiliation, demoralization, simultaneous rejection by very large masses, simultaneous ridicule by very large masses, rejection precisely by anything you develop any sort of attachment to, coercive involvement by masses in everything you do and everything you think, betrayal by anyone that you have any expectation from or that you are under the illusion that they care about you, obliging you to all kinds of tedious chores, coercive and forceful deceptions combined with the knowledge of the consequences of not resisting these deceptions in very overt ways, extreme self-consciousness due to your thoughts being constantly policed and met with punishments, exploitation of your conscience, exploitation of your fears, exploitation of your trust, subjection by masses to all kinds of moralities, proprieties, and standards of every sort which have nothing to do with the world in which you live, the cold indifference and denial by everyone of everything happening in your life, the killing of hope, the killing of spirit, and the killing of every possible freedom. Or it can come in physical forms: punishments of the body by electric shocks, the infliction of other bodily agonies, and of course forcible confinement, the police, and being beat up.

The entire thing: http://1984policestate.blogspot.com/2010/04/police-machine.html

Learn to read. No one is obliged to agree with anything I say, but it’s pretty fucking hard, at this point, not to understand what I’m saying and not to understand that I am perfectly aware of how it would sound within the imposed context of some not absurd world. I operate on knowledge of the world around me. Those around me operate on ideology.

and I still receive constant electric shocks to private areas of my body. I receive them at very specific times and they are used to police my thoughts and my activities. they can be quite excessive and when not painful, certainly more than irritating. whether society cracks down on me or not, it doesn't really stop the electric shocks that are inflicted on my body very regularly.

the pieces of shit have decided to increase their coercive involvement in my life, and so now must clamp down on me for it. walking on the street means being preyed on and raped by the pieces of shit. I don't start off being hostile when going outside, and so they immediately take advantage of this and become involved in my thoughts, and then pigs will start taking advantage of every instance of my consideration to them and inflict psychological torture and conditioning against me until I get mad and respond, and then they unleash any professional or other facet required to enforce the targeting and the nazi police state and to use various intimidations against me as well. they team up against me as a society and target me as a society.

whenever not writing anything for a very short while, it automatically reverts on this blog to putting up the post where I provided an address where I was targeted as the primary post that shows up for this blog, which is not something I really give a shit about, but then the pieces of shit become increasingly hostile and eager to inflict punishments on me when it does that, although it's not actually me doing that, I don't get to choose which post shows up as the primary post.
funny, there are standards of privacy towards the pieces of shit being applied towards me and used to target me by a society of pigs that's teaming up against me and inflicts punishments on me everywhere I go and seems to know what I look like and needless to say doesn't have the slightest respect for my privacy. in fact, activities inside my house, such as reading something, for example, are met with severe punishments by the pigs when I go outside.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. whenever I am not devoting my every moment to the pieces of shit, they immediately return to being the pigs they always return to being when I am not devoting my every moment to them, who must fulfill the imperative of targeting and policing me as a society. they harass me everywhere I go and become coercively involved in my movements within society and police everything I do by corresponding harassments. they inflict punishments on me for details of my life. they single me out and give me special treatment everywhere I go. they tell me where I'm allowed to be and increase harassments whenever I'm somewhere they don't want to allow me to be. they don't do anything other than police my life and team up against me in very large numbers, and every pig I encounter is just the same. these pieces of shit are a disease and I wish they would fucking die.

in reference now to nano-beings crawling into every mundane thing in my life:
the pieces of shit constantly become coercively involved in everything I do, including the most mundane things, and bring rot and death to it. anything I do - there are the pieces of shit becoming coercively involved in it and making it impossible. sometimes I wonder what the pieces of shit are for, but then I am reminded that everything needs to have pieces of shit crawling into it, and so that's what the pieces of shit are for. they crawl into everything I do and take coercive advantage of my most mundane activities and place themselves in the middle of these in ways which will make these impossible to accomplish. they crawl into descriptions and try to get me attacked by mobs, and exploit it that everything in my life has to be arranged around trying to avoid being attacked by mobs. they team up against me and are all members of the same team. if I don't stand up to them it's just back to complete arbitrary law and they just treat me in any way they please, and so I have to stand up to them in ways on which they'll prey, and set it up in advance for preying. these relentless leeches just prey on me as a very large team and do not ever leave me alone and are all the same and all work together to prey on one single person, and there is nowhere to get away from it. then they come in the size of people and force me to also acknowledge them as people. as I write this I receive electric shocks to my body. the pieces of shit are not there to care. the pieces of shit are there to prey, in large numbers, on one person, relentlessly, year after year, and ensure all the best conditions for this by allowing nothing in the life of the one they collectively target. the pieces of shit are a disease. any disease piece of shit that attacks me or inflicts retributions on me for writing this next time I go outside, is a disease piece of shit that deserves to die.

the electric shocks to private areas of my body keep intensifying and becoming more and more painful. the thing inflicting electric shocks to my body also constantly tells me what I'm allowed to do and controls everything around me. the thing inflicting electric shocks to my body is a piece of shit.
the things walking around calling themselves people just participate in targeting me and if I mentioned to them that I receive electric shocks to private areas of my body would just find a way to use it against me, and when I just try to co-exist with them and mind my own business they go out of their way to pick on me and to instigate things that they can then use against me and to further restrict my movements. these things walk around and are recongnized to be people.

the pieces of shit don't allow me to think or to experience doubt, and take coercive advantage of these things and inflict punishments for them, and so obviously I hate the pieces of shit and hate it when they're around. but that's not enough: when I'm alone in my house I'm not permitted to think or to experience doubt, and this will be met with electric shocks to my body and abuses of my senses.

and everything has to always be suited to this insanity of the pieces of shit policing and targeting me as a society no matter where I go, and I can't take a single step outside of my house without immediately encountering a personal cop, and everyone else I encounter just more personal cops. if I do anything whatsoever in my life however mundane, I will not be able to take a single step without running into a personalized retribution for this. I am not even given sufficient space to prepare myself, and keeping up my guard against pieces of shit that police my thoughts as I'm thinking them is itself sufficient to cripple every aspect of my life, although whenever I do let down my guard in my thoughts they'll ensure to fulfill this function and to remind me that I cannot be permitted to be alive in any way, in one way or another, as long as they are there and policing me as a society.

and whenever I single out any member of the team (the entirety of society), I will immediately be converged on by society as a whole no matter where I go. and whenever there is any vulnerability in my life I am immediately attacked and cannot go anywhere to avoid this, and whenever I let down my guard in any way anyone required will appear before me to reject me, and whenever anyone is nice to me, like clockwork they'll be first in line to kick me when I'm down. and I'm not permitted to walk on the street, to think, to however slightly trust anyone, or to do anything at all. I'm being targeted by a relentless mass of pigs.

generally, whenever writing anything that's not to the approval of the collective, I will step outside and instantaneously encounter pieces of shit that are hostile to me because of this. likewise, pieces of shit no matter where I go will instantaneously become hostile whenever I am doing anything they do not wish to permit me to do, such as walking on the street without any good reason. now they would like to have a direct relationship to my thoughts, and so I am not permitted to write anything or to do anything whatsoever. writing anything at all and doing anything at all will be treated as a betrayal of the relationship of the pieces of shit to my thoughts. if I betray this relationship, I will step outside and instantaneoudly encounter pieces of shit hostile to me for this, as well as taking coercive advantage of my thoughts to punish me for this betrayal.
whenever convenient, I am subjected to the standards of a society, but really it's a maximum security prison, or quite a bit more.

again it's this fucking bullshit that my entire life has to fall apart and the pieces of shit that police me as a society will find every excuse to increase their jurisdiction over my life, because I have moved around within society in ways they do not wish to permit me. they just police one thing in the name of something else as they always do. this happens whenever I move around within society in ways I'm not permitted to. there is one place I am permitted to be, and I have to lock myself there and hope that they bother me as little as possible when locked there, and I am only permitted to rot there and that's it. these fucking pigs just tell me what to do and where to be all the time.

and everywhere I go it's just more of these pieces of shit that are all the same and are all the police.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. I cannot walk on the street or do anything without being preyed on by these pieces of shit. these pieces of shit prey on my thoughts and take brutal advantage the instant I let down my guard in my thoughts in any way. these pieces of shit inflict retributions on me for my thoughts and use this to police my every movement. when the pieces of shit get into prey mode, they just do not stop. that's it. no life is permitted now. I am not permitted to do anything and I am not permitted to be anywhere. the pieces of shit are in collective prey mode now and all things are even more restricted than they usually are by the disease pieces of shit that brutally mind-rape me and prey on me as a society in every possible way. these pigs do not allow me to walk on the street or to do anything. these pieces of shit deserve to die.

I even feel an obligation to be fair to them knowing me everywhere I go. if they didn't happen to know me everywhere I go, very many of these problems just wouldn't be there in the first place. then, every problem that is created by this is just exploited relentlessly, while my obligation to be fair to them keeps being stretched in ways not especially reasonable towards myself.

I wish someone would be able to just see something, rather than just fulfill required functions.

I am constantly subjected to discriminatory treatment in public places. when I try to co-exist peacefully with them they'll just instigate something that will require me to respond in a way that will allow them to mark me there for the rest of time. sometimes I'll walk into places I'd never even been to before and immediately the eyes will glare and sometimes I will even be refused service. that's like I'm famous in a very bad way, without even being acknowledged as famous. then, if I do something in my life that's not to the approval of the society targeting me, they are then protected in inflicting mass retributions on me for it, and to them this is morally sound, although I don't know of anyone else that's being spied on and targeted and teamed up against by an entire society.
if I stand up to anyone that's picking on me, this infuriates the mob that's targeting me, which will naturally take the side of the mob and of any member of the mob I stand up to.

the pieces of shit constantly become coercively involved in my thoughts and do not permit me to think without their involvement.

the disease pieces of shit are now set on relentless destroy. when the target of a sea of disease pieces of shit one is not permitted to experience doubt or think or anything. any experience of doubt is immediately met with attacks by disease pieces of shit that appear whenever you're down and need to be kicked, and that are just there to take any opportunity to bring to destruction anything they can without ever doing anything positive. when experiencing any doubt, disease pieces of shit will immediately take the opportunity to take advantage of you and take away any freeom from you that they can. your right to privacy becomes even more non-existent and policing your thoughts becomes even more casual when a mob of disease pieces of shit that knows no limits and has no place restricted from its pervasion is set on attack and destroy.
I am put in a position of being the target of a very elaborate war, and every single thing requires extremely delicate explanations and distinctions, and then those I have to make every case to are this sea of disease pieces of shit that's always eager to attack vulnerabilities, and in large numbers. you experience doubt, and the disease pieces of shit will invade, and you are expected to make every case and give every delicate explanation to these pieces of shit.
these pieces of shit shouldn't even be there, and yet I always have to justify myself to them when they should be justifying themselves to me, because they are all-pervasive, have large numbers, police my thoughts, and have every possible weapon. these pieces of shit are a disease.

the pieces of shit relentlessly pursue me by every kind of harassment and constantly tell me what I'm allowed to do and where I'm allowed to be, and then the instant I respond they pursue me by the deniability they always ensure themselves, and often will get in my face to enact the context wherein this deniability can take life, if only I overlook that they happen to know me everywhere and that they have this personal relationship with me, and don't treat me in reaction to anything I'm doing but in reaction to something I've written or quite often something I'm thinking or have thought or something I've done inside my house. the instant I'm not hostile to them, they immediately become hostile to me, and then the instant I become hostile to them they immediately treat me like the great vampire of their little colony. they also become coercively involved in the process of me walking on the street, and when I begin walking they'll get my hopes up that I will have an uneventful walk, and then by the time I am nearly finished I am suddenly very out of favour with the colony.
when fighting for rights, I usually fight for basic rights such as moving around within society, expressing myself, and keeping them away from my thoughts, while they usually fight for the right to pick on me. as far as I know, it's within the legal rights of each of them to pick on whoever they want, and it happens that very many of them choose to pick on me, and it's within the legal rights of each of them to treat me like I'm famous as long as they don't officially acknowledge this, and it's within the legal rights of each of them not to tell me that I'm famous or anything of this sort, as far as I know. everything they do is protected by deniability anyways. anyone that tells me that there are laws against harassment only ends up taking their side and corroborating their deniability, and anything legal it seems can be used only against me and not against anyone else.
it's also within my rights to exercise freedom of speech, to stand up to them, to move around within society, and a hell of a lot of other things I have come to understand I am not permitted to do when society is always at my throat.

the pieces of shit stalk me as a society and harass me constantly and without stop. they do not tire of it year after year and not ever for a second. they become coercively involved in my thoughts and go out of their way to cripple my ability to use my senses. I must accept that I can't say anything about the things they actually do, because they all happen to know me everywhere I go, and then they exploit this and increase targeted societal intrusions into everything I do especially in privacy, as it is a great advantage to them when they can cripple my ability to use my senses and to think while themselves protected from any response from me.
these are the things they actually do, and quite insistently, and do not relent as long as there is any doubt in me that they are doing it on purpose, and then it only works against me if I say anything about it, especially when they happen to all know me everywhere I go. these pieces of shit are a disease and I wish they would die.

year after year I am tyrannized over by these idiots that just relentlessly stalk me and team up against me and then use this to subject me to contexts and standards that completely overlook them relentlessly stalking me and teaming up against me. they always put everything in the context of them being unquestionably right about everything while always wrong about everything, but they have each other to corroborate each other and they have me to target and they always work very hard to ensure that I can never get to any position of being taken very seriously or even being permitted very basic freedoms. now there is also a sharp increase of me being policed in my house by intrusions I am not permitted for a second to ignore are targeted to me, as well as a sharp increase of electric shocks to my body. while the pieces of shit that call themselves people and force me to accept them to be people are just there to enforce all the most blatant and personalized propaganda against me and are all the same and all idiots everywhere I go.

when society is always targeting you and always keeping you in the spotlight without permitting anything in your life, the expectation from you is to just suppress yourself to minimize targeting, while they have the advantage of permitting nothing in your life and so can take restricting your freedoms to ever greater extremes. things like me going outside or showing up anywhere in society are treated with increasing severity and it becomes understood that there are simply very many freedoms I am told I have that will not be tolerated and will be met with consequences I am told are coincidental, in the same way every single time.
I must constantly justify everything to the society that's policing me and permitting nothing in my life, due to being kept in the spotlight while permitted nowhere to be and nothing to have in my life, and so then it just becomes increasingly understood that no one anywhere is very happy to ever see me and everyone always has very much to vent against me, although it's treated very casually that they all happen to know me everywhere I go. they don't ever change, and so all that's possible is for my every freedom to be increasingly restricted, and more so the more I try to reason with them, and for me to accept all those distortions of perspective and context for fear of the consequences of not accepting these.
nothing is permitted to ever go anywhere, and there is absolute refusal to allow anything positive in my life by those willing to go to any distance for purposes of policing my life, and so the only direction that's permitted is for my every freedom to be increasingly restricted by all kinds of tricks and exploitations of every possible vulnerability. I am expected to suppress myself and keep suppressing myself, and then whenever I don't suppress myself I am expected to suppress myself and then keep suppressing myself again, and that's it, nothing else is permitted in my life, the only context is how much suppression I am able to endure, and they are there to be judges of that, while doing absolutely nothing positive and obliging me to them in no other way than by fear of punishments.

first, they leave you for dead and ensure that you cannot be permitted anything and are always excluded from everything. then, they ensure that there is never a single instance of me being able to go outside without some piece of shit taking some bite. when one is left for dead and has nowhere to turn and is permitted nothing, all one can do is watch every bite fester without there being anything to replace it. then, they can treat my every breath as a very great occurrence in exploitation of this and use this to further restrict my presence anywhere in society.
I'm sick of these pigs and I wish they would die.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. they treat me like I'm famous and use this to police my life, but they don't acknowledge me as famous and all they ever acknowledge me as is a misfit, someone with inappropriate views and inappropriate thoughts, someone not dressed appropriately or not behaving appropriately, or someone not entitled to make judgments and decisions and needing their forced assistance despite not welcoming it in any way.
anything I try to do with my life that's positive is shunned, but there is never any effort they are not willing to make for purposes of policing my life.
everywhere I go I am picked on and given special treatment by pieces of shit not capable of minding their own business, and I have to lock myself in my house to avoid them, and then whenever going outside I have to keep trying to find different places to go because there isn't any place I can go to for very long before starting to be made to feel unwelcome, but they are all the same no matter where I go and are all set on targeting me and driving me out of wherever I am.
ideologically, every single thing has been arranged to accommodate the mob and to work against the individual standing up to the mob.
in the life I am living, it has come to be acceptable as something casual that when encountering them, it is the business of a piece of shit to tell me where I am allowed to go and what I am allowed to do, and it is the business of a piece of shit to inflict retributions on me for thoughts that I think. (they also inflict retributions on me for every other detail of my life).
it is a very regular occurence for me to encounter someone I have never seen before and have no particular ill will against, and then having to endure very personalized retributions against me by this someone for something else in my life.
I am always outnumbered and always the target no matter where I go and no matter what I do. they are a collective and tyrannize over me as a collective. nothing particular can ever be specified, as the entire collective will converge on me if any such vulnerability is exposed. no one else is subjected to such restrictions.
any will to communicate intelligently will always come to a rot when having to encounter them and endure their exploitations of vulnerabilities.

in a situation of extreme inequality, somehow it's ingrained as inextricable that every single thing I write serves as an umbrella for the numerous beings that are set on targeting me. and when they are set on targeting me, not only will they nest in everything I write every time, but this standard of inextricability proves to be inapplicable. non-existential beings protect themselves by my every existential problem, and this of course ends up creating ever more existential problems. and their insistence on targeting me in large masses, and their insistence on lying about everything, and the situation of extreme inequality and endless guns pointed at one person, and the obsessive application of a logic used precisely for purposes contradictory to this logic, all end up creating ever more existential problems, in which non-existential beings will nest and by which they will justify extreme inequality: my every move being very closely monitored, every detail of my life being swiftly met with retributions, everyone I encounter another prison wall and member of the team against me, and nothing in my life being permitted.

Everything is curved in a very particular direction, and this curve ensures the future curving of anything that may be attempted to be built on it. If I do nothing to contribute to the curving, I will just be under persistent attack in accordance to this curve which will not stop until I stand up for myself, at which point the curving will immediately be attributed as emanating from me, due to the requirements of the curve.
Moreover, everything is covered over by a false grid of equality that is there to protect and camouflage the most extreme inequality. Everyone is there to corroborate everyone else and every hand is there to wash every other. Everything is protected by deniability and ambiguity and often hidden under things dismissible as mundane. Everyone is very obtuse while everything is set in their advantage. If anything, however obvious, protects itself by deniability, however dubious, it will always have an entire army to protect its deniability against eyes that are able to see.

I always have to justify everything to the collective, while the collective cannot admit to a single thing. they are non-humans, and shouldn't even be there, and I acknowledge this. however, practically it's precisely the other way around: they treat me in every way in which I should be treating them, and accuse me of everything they do and take credit for everything I do. if I acknowledge what they are, this only gives them an excuse to treat me in the ways they've always treated me anyways, because I have now contradicted their lies about themselves and so have given them occasion for 'retribution'. I've always treated them much better than they treated me, and they just exploited this. at this point I try to treat them in the same way that they treat me, but still they have the advantage of having no conscience, experiencing no doubts, being a block and always there to jump to the defense of each other against me, having no selves to get in their way and being permitted to contradict themselves endlessly without having to account for anything, and having infinite knowledge about my life without there being anything to be known about them.
they always go out of their way to exclude me and to permit themselves freedoms they don't permit me. it's ok for them to express emotions (which they don't have), and it's ok for them to quarrel and to question society, but it's always a seperate case if I do these things and immediately the antibodies are released against me. they are simply the police, in very great numbers, and disguised as regular people. they are there to police me, to tell me what I'm allowed to do, where I'm allowed to go, what I'm allowed to say, what I'm allowed to think, and what I'm allowed to feel at all times. they are permitted to do whatever they want, and just go out of their way to always exclude me and not permit me the freedoms they are permitted. it's ok for them to question society all they want, but the instant I do anything of the sort in their presense, those I have been listening to questioning society will tell me that questioning society is not something acceptable when done by myself. if I write about it, the entire public can crack down on me.
every exploitation is taken to an extreme where it's able to protect itself by some illusion of equality. if they always exclude me, pick on me, and team up against me, this is all balanced out by them lying about it. then they can protect their double-standards towards me under the double standard that is me being honest about what's around me within the context of their lies. and of course they never fail to take those additional bites by invoking their prominent philosophies that attribute every single thing to the individual within the context of a neutral world, which couldn't be more out of context. and so everything they relentlessly insist on year after year is just erased from existence, and I have after all just brought it all on myself, which is nicely insulting when coming from the mouths of those that have rather insisted on treating me in these ways for a very long time.

because they are incapable of admitting to a single thing they do and of seeing a single thing that's happening around and done by themselves, then any straightforwardness on my part is categorized as a theory and subjected to the standards of theoretical consistency (rather than existential consistency).
I don't extend the umbrella of anything I say over to them because they are not existent beings. I am subjected to both contexts and have to live by both contexts. when I go outside, they are of course everywhere, which wouldn't be a problem if they were the types of beings capable of minding their own business, but is a problem when they are the types of beings that are there to police me as a society. when I go to the store, I of course have to pay for anything I want, and so the part of me having to pay is there, but the part of me being able to have money is not there because the umbrella has been extended over to them in that selective way: they can't be expected to let me have money, but they certainly require money from me if I would like to buy anything.
they would like to both act like they know me everywhere and use this to police my life, as well as deny knowing who I am and use it against me if I mention anything about this. they would like to justify arbitrary law and policing my thoughts because they are non-entities that cannot be held accountable to anything, but the streets have to always be packed with them despite them being non-entities. I have to live by their nonsensical laws and within their nonsensical system, and they use every facet of the system in personalized ways against me while I must observe the utmost fairness towards them in accordance to what this personalized system likes to call itself.
I have to deal with and live with their every contradiction, and these are not of a nature where I may have the luxury of going out to observe the magnificent contradictions of these insane beings, but of a nature where these contradictions are specifically designed to cut in every way into my life and to make it unreasonable for a living and thinking being to exist. then, they put me in the spotlight, attribute to me everything they are not capable of admitting to, and then subject me to the standards of a non-living thing that cannot be affected by its surroundings and cannot even acknowledge its surroundings as it must be in full perfection in-itself at every moment.

the logic of equality: if there is a car, then I must be a car, or if I'm not then neither is the car.
and if they make me acknowledge them as people while targeting me as a society, I might subject them to the standards of people to see how they measure up.

communication must be reduced to the lowest denominator, otherwise it's not communication. and so, communication ends up being a good method for them to prey.

and as always, whenever I am not in the midst of devoting my every moment fully to them there will just be these virus invasions of my life by a number of pieces of shit simultaneously. every single thing I write that is explanatory will be overlooked and pieces of shit will attack vulnerabilities despite all explanations.
if everything is reduced to nothing more than abstract formulations, then the actuality of anything is hidden behind words which are all equal. a large army is teaming up against one person, non-stop, year after year, policing the person's life and draining the person's life. as soon as I walk out the door, the first thing I encounter is a piece of shit involving itself in my life, and everything else I encounter is more pieces of shit involving themselves in my life. they all treat me in very personalized ways everywhere I go. I cannot do a single thing without this being met with consequences next time I go outside. everyone acts like they know me everywhere I go. everything I do is shunned. then they subject me to the standards of someone who is very famous and wealthy and powerful, and target me for my every word in accordance to these standards, while teaming up against me and targeting me as a society and barely allowing me to have any money at all and ensuring to always do everything to disempower me morally.
any mention of electric shocks to my body is met with their disapproval. any mention of me being shunned is met with their disapproval. any mention of them acting like they know me everywhere is met with their disapproval. these pieces of shit really care and are very much all the wonderful things they like to call themselves. every single thing they do is ensured to always be protected by deniability and ambiguity, and then they target me in personalized ways in accordance to this deniability. anything I say is reduced to a formulation which they'll use against me in out of context ways. if they are out to target me no matter what, and I associate them with what they are, within the context of their deniability I would be associating them with what they are not, which can have drastic effects when they all act like they know me everywhere I go. there is no better way to word this. I wish they were capable of admitting to a single thing they do.
then they are protected by this and can go out of their way to associate me with whatever they want, and restrict my freedoms accordingly. all I try to do is survive while being targeted and teamed up against by an entire society. if my life has been reduced to the point of me locking myself in my house, then stepping outside of my house will be treated as an initiation of aggression. whatever they reduce your life to, they never see any problem with it but just take it from there and see what more they can reduce in your life.
let's say the psychological effects of me having been treated in these ways by society for years was suddenly visible to those targeting me as a society and each and every spy was made to feel restricted in my presense while I of course as always have to feel very restricted in the presense of each and every spy: what sort of comparison would it be between my entire life being extremely restricted all the time, and each and every one of them being restricted in my presense because they happen to know me everywhere I go? each and every one of them would be able to avoid me whenever they wish, while I can never avoid them no matter where I go. they team up against me and target me as a society and are all the same everywhere I go: it's one very large team against one single person. then they try to find places in thoughts where equality-logic can obscure perspective and just exploit this, while conveniently also there to police my thoughts.

the pieces of shit become coercively involved in my thoughts and in my activities inside my house.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everyone I encounter is another piece of shit agent that's there to spy on me and police my life. these pieces of shit police my thoughts and tell me what to do all the time. they tell me where I am allowed to be, where I am allowed to go, and what I am and am not allowed to do. everywhere I go I am singled out and picked on and every one of them is just there to team up against me.
they are never not there when something in my life needs to be policed or exploited, but I cannot be permitted to make a living because how can I be able to make a living when those policing me are just pieces of shit. and they'll also become coercively involved in the very process of me trying to do anything with my life and will go to any length to remind me that I cannot be permitted to do anything as long as they are pieces of shit.

the pieces of shit harass me everywhere and target and police me as a society. if I am out of favour with the pieces of shit, large numbers of pieces of shit will take it on themselves to go out of their way to harass me everywhere I go. they become coercively involved in every single thing I do. they become coercively involved in my thoughts. they tell me where I am allowed to go and where I am allowed to be. they gang up against me as a society. they treat me like I'm famous without acknowledging me as famous. they shun everything I do and permit nothing in my life. the only communication with them they permit is in the form that will allow them to best collectively prey on me. if I mention anything about being physically raped, they'll just contribute psychologically in every way they can. if I try to reason with them I have to be reminded that they are pieces of shit that are not there to understand but only to exploit every vulnerability. these pieces of shit call themselves humans, but they are a disease.

today it seems I am out of favour with the pieces of shit that police me as a society, which is funny because they act like they know me everywhere I go.
every detail of my life causes very large problems due to the pieces of shit acting like they know me everywhere I go and attaching themselves to everything I do.

big brother is a piece of shit that inflicts electric shocks on my body, which have decided to significantly increase today. it tells me what I am allowed to do and what I am allowed to think at all times, and uses this and various other deterrents and punishments.

the pieces of shit police me as a society. they don't acknowledge me as famous, and they shun everything I do, but they treat me like I'm famous and use this to police my life.

if there is any vulnerability in me or in my writings or anything I've written that's easy to dismiss and exploit, this will have consequences next time I go outside. often I dread going outside because of this. they themselves correspond to every vulnerability in my life in coercive ways. they target me as a society, act like they know me everywhere I go, single me out and pick on me everywhere I go, team up against me at every opportunity, spy on my life, permit nothing in my life, and go out of their way to always exclude me and to make the conditions of my life as excruciating as possible. then, because I must be bound by standards of equality towards them while they are not bound by standards of equality towards me, then things like memory, caution, and thinking in general, infringe on them in the same ways that they, with their entire being, infringe on me: they superimpose themselves on my life and then subject me to standards of 3D space without allowing such space.
they have been treating me very abusively for many years and have created many traumas. I don't like them and I don't enjoy it when they come near me. I associate them with everything that one victimized by abuse will associate with the figure of abuse responsible. but they must proceed in the same ways, and so the inevitable existential consequences of being treated in these ways are just exploited.

They are just extremely stupid and team up against me in large masses no matter where I go. They are there to enforce the truth of all the things they are not capable of questioning in personalized ways against me in correspondence to every breath I take. There is not a single thing I can do that won’t be met with retributions, and every detail of my life is very closely monitored, and so there must be some sort of justice in that. Is there anyone else who is capable of saying that they are treated so justly? They don’t know a single thing from experience but are always very forthcoming in telling me what I’m allowed to do and knowing better what I should do.
The retributions they inflict on me for every detail of my life everywhere I go are on the level of their capacity to comprehend. If they create massive problems in my life, they can then inflict retributions on me for the problems they create. If they do something and then lie about it, they can then inflict retributions on me for the fact that the things they do bother me and create massive problems in my life despite them lying about it. The funniest thing is that them lying about it actually makes it even worse, and doesn’t help in any way.
And their logic seems to be that if something bad is done to me, it means that I must deserve it, because nothing bad is capable of happening to someone, who is me, unless I deserve it. I wonder in what multitudes they would attack me if I was to make such a crude judgment. Meanwhile, they never get a single thing that’s coming to them and just keep getting away with this shit year after year.
If they attach themselves coercively to every single thing I do, then everything I do will be a great problem to them and everything they do will be a great problem to me. Then they can twist this against me and suggest that my consciousness attaches itself to their actions and they are tyrannized over by my consciousness (whether I express it or not) as they happen to know me intimately everywhere I go. Or they’ll arrange everything in correspondence to descriptions I give in ways that will make my descriptions appear as reversed against me. Or they'll cripple by punishments things in my life and then protect their exploitations as reflections of the traumas created by this.
Nano-beings, in large numbers, can create very large problems. Everything is restricted and everything is brought to paralysis. Everything they do is protected by the problems they create, and they exploit fairness to them and disguise everything they do in every shadow of every such problem.

whenever I start writing, the pieces of shit again become coercively involved in the process of writing in the most destructive ways. they attach themselves coercively to everything I do and police my life. they also exploit every thought that I think in the most cold blooded manner. they permit nothing in my life and keep forcing me into positions that will enable them to prey on me most effectively. I must explain everything so as not to be viciously attacked, and then they prey on me for explaining by taking advantage of everything I write in coercive ways. and brutal and cold-blooded retributions are inflicted on me for things I merely think.
they exploit every exploitation and take it to extremes where they are able to attain some semblance of equality under which they are protected. the more I go into detail about it, the more brutal will be the results, because they attach themselves to everything I write and treat my writings as instructions. then, if I don't go into sufficient detail this will have brutal results as well. they prey on everything and police my life.
if I am violated in some way and then respond, they are then protected by this response and each of them is able to keep violating me precisely in the same way and then be immune against any further response, as any further response will keep being diverted towards the first instance.
if the iron-fist of the public comes crashing down on me, anyone I interact with is protected by this and able to exploit this.
if there is some big event, generally, no reference to any particular event, immediately invasions of my life will be increased to exploit that I am in the spotlight and they are not and are protected by deniability.
if they take environment-enhancement to an extreme and use it to police my life, this allows them to also treat my every breath as a tremendous cataclysm in exploitation of a false semblance of equality that's created.
if they are non-living things and I am a living thing, this allows them to treat me like a non-living thing when I don't treat them like non-living things, in exploitation of their lies and my existential position (although when they don't treat me like a living thing often I can't treat them like living things either, not because I acknowledge them as non-living things but because they don't treat me like a living thing).
in dealings with them, if I do anything with good intentions, they'll accuse me of the opposite to punish me for any good intentions, and will never let any such thing go without punishment. same for whenever I falsely read any good intentions into anything they do. (this type of thing can also disguise itself as a very mundane human thing, although it's done quite intentionally and is designed to constantly kill my hope and spirit).
everything is arranged just so and filled with various traps, and then I am policed by these very numerous and very obtuse beings that just revolve around me and are there to make me miserable.
they usurp and exploit every existential trait and use the impostoring of these precisely to police my every breath as well as to exploit these very existential workings when they occur in me, and often force me precisely into these elaborately designed existential positions that allow for maximum exploitation.

anyways, I can write whatever I want, and anyone in the public that inflicts retributions on me for things I write is a nazi pig that should be shot in the face.

when speaking with any of them, generally, it's pretty easy to see through their bullshit and I'm able to outargue any of them. and so, anyone I speak with will make it their first business to put restrictions on what I'm allowed to say in their presense. I don't put restrictions on what they're allowed to say because I don't make it my business to tell anyone what they're allowed to say. and so, I'm not permitted to stand up to them and to express myself freely, while they're permitted to do whatever they want, and then this is exploited and used to pick on me more and reduce anything I have to say to irrelevance that seems to only increase the more I don't express myself. all I can do is keep trying to prove to them that I am reasonable and able to make reasonable judgments, and the more I do that the more patronizingly I am treated and the more I am taken advantage of.

I don't think that they are very reasonable or very sane, they are just very numerous and have everything set in their advantage.

and if they turn themselves into mirrors or distortion-mirrors, they are then immune. and yet they are exploitation-driven-beings that operate as a virus and in very large numbers. even if the mirrors are not distortion-mirrors, it's a distortion not to acknowledge a hall of mirrors as a hall of mirrors. and then there is the authority of a mirror, and if you acknowledge it as a mirror you are only empowering it against yourself, and yet it may very well be an exploitation- or distortion-mirror.

I've noticed that I never really tell anyone what to do, but just constantly have to practice defenses against the very things they relentlessly exploit and then explicitly tell me what to do about 'in retribution' to the fact that it bothers me.
if I don't notice, no one will, and I will be taken advantage of for not noticing.
also, because I'm being targeted by society, then anything I say about things being done to me is ultra-magnified and treated as a tremendous yell for consideration that's ultra-audible and yet put in a context of these things not being done to me. and then they even exploit consideration in every possible way and just use it to further police me. or at more honest times they'll just be completely deaf to anything I say and if I pretty much have to yell it will do absolutely nothing.
and I'm sure the nano-beings will find something to exploit in what I'd just written.
(often I'm not explicitly told what to do either, for instance, it's just met with an electric shock to my body. and often the only way to communicate with them is on their level, via noises etc).

everyone is on the same team. there is no one with any sense of perspective, any ability to remember anything, any ability to see anything, or any ability to do anything other than attack vulnerabilities. if I don't word something perfectly, this will be met with consequences next time I go outside, as no one really tries to understand anything but everyone only looks for vulnerabilities to attack. if I stand up to any member of the team, this will be met with the disapproval of every other member of the team. singling anyone out is not treated as acceptable for me to do by the society that targets me and always keeps me isolated and singled out and gangs up against me in masses and then subjects my every breath to every possible application of equality-logic and targets me by it.
these pieces of shit tell me where I am allowed to go, what I am allowed to do, what I am allowed to think, and what I am allowed to feel at all times. they permit nothing in my life and drain my life and leave me for dead year after year and then excessively police every single thing I do and are restricted not by any sanity. verily, I don't like it when these pieces of shit get very close to me, and would prefer it if they weren't there. then, the pieces of shit are protected by punishing me for the way they make me feel towards them. it's all equal.

the pieces of shit also become coercively involved in my thoughts and my emotions when walking on the street. obviously this makes it quite excruciating to walk on the street. the instant I let down my guard in any way, quickly a piece of shit will take advantage of it and inflict a corresponding sting.

went outside today. it seems the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everyone just keeps attacking whenever there is any vulnerability. if I'm treated unfairly, everyone will just agree with it and corroborate each other. they just gang up against me as a society and everyone participates and then subjects me to bullshit standards of their justice and vengeance. they are a nazi disease.

moreover, everyone acts like they know me everywhere I go. this is a very big thing, and is not acknowledged as taking place at all. in the past they would relentlessly assimilate anything I would say about what's around me into something applicable within their context. they erase and mask every single thing around me and destroy any defenses against them.

they set up an elaborate context which they seal around everything I do and use to target me specifically, and within that context every single thing I say is precisely reversed against me. I contribute nothing to their fictional context, and my presence brings death to their fictional context.
having eyes is something that I find helpful, as I can see what's around me and see their tremendous inconsistencies. another helpful thing is having memory, because I remember precisely who put the first restrictions, who thrust the first knife, and who kept insisting and insisting on this until I finally responded. at this point there is no reconciliation, on their part because whenever I let down my guard they immediately insist on bringing it back to the path of targeting me, and on my part because I am not willing to trust them and to forget events recent and less recent.

I write because I'm always outnumbered in their presense. although if I didn't have to worry about restrictions being put on me in their presense I would be able to handle a large number of them. once they destroy my defenses and then themselves proceed in the same ways, my only recourse is writing about it or doing nothing and letting the poison fester. no matter what, everything feeds into the inevitable cycle.

another, unrelated point: they'll often just mirror everything I feel towards them and then treat me in reflection of the way they make me feel towards them, and all kinds of variations of this. the hall of mirrors and distortion-mirrors, has many mirrors, but it often doesn't take into account that it's a hall of mirrors.

the pieces of shit police my life. they attach themselves to everything I do and inflict corresponding retributions next time I encounter them. they police my thoughts and inflict retributions on me for thoughts that I think. they team up against me and always ensure to keep me isolated and targeted by them. they lie about every single thing and then project everything they do onto me to punish me for any honesty. they instigate fights and then forget their part in it the instant that I respond and prey on me for any response. they treat my every breath as being of great proportion and a great threat and detriment to them and arrange it so that co-existence cannot be tolerable to them or to me. they set up an elaborate context within which anything I say about what’s around me is reduced to irrelevance, and they seal this context around everything I do and use it as a body-suit and target me by this context and mask every single thing around me and reduce all honesty to irrelevance and protect themselves, and within this context they can call themselves many wonderful things while acting like cold-blooded Nazis.

big brother is a piece of shit that inflicts electric shocks on my body and tells me what to do all the time. whenever I go outside, everywhere in society everyone acts like they know me and becomes involved in my life in coercive ways.

somehow nothing ever changes and they just keep doing the same things. they respond to vulnerabilities and they always like to set me up for being attacked by large masses, while the large masses can of course make no distinctions and just respond to vulnerabilities as well. the only thing is that I always have to worry about next time I go outside, because while the large masses are not obliged to admit knowing who I am, they can attack me in large masses.
they set themselves up precisely in ways that exploit whatever set of circumstances happens to be in my life at the present, and it's just obvious to me that I can respond to what's around me when being treated unfairly, and then I find out that everything has been precisely set up for further targeting and it can culminate in being attacked by large masses (I haven't gone outside today, but am anticipating a possible eventuality). communication is not meaningless at all, and they are not a bunch of parasites who are just there to prey on me and to police my life at all.
moreover, speaking with them is difficult, and I am subjected to the utmost etiquette lest the conversation be brought to a halt. if I express any emotion the conversation can be brought to a halt. I end up preferring to write, and then I have to worry about being attacked by large masses, while anyone I interact with will just keep setting me up for being attacked by large masses.
everything in my life is extremely restricted due to being constantly preyed on by parasites. as I write this I receive electric shocks to my genitals.
moreover, in interactions with them, they will set up good cops to protect the bad cops, and so A and B will be the good cops, and then C will be the bad cop, although it can switch around. C is a vicious parasite that has been preying on me for years. A and B are of couse equally capable of turning against me when required, as is everyone else.

it's difficult to describe their nano-workings. in reference now specifically to personal interactions with them, although all facets use the same methods as all other facets whenever required.
they always make a lot of suggestions, and in fact have been exploiting this in very extreme ways, by means of all facets, for a long time. then, if they come in the name of being extremely well attuned to suggestions I make, intentionally or unintentionally, they are then protected by any defense I attempt against them, and indeed exploit this.
or they will come as self-proclaimed magnets of a distorted karma that is more akin to a curse and in fact ensures that justice can never occur, and take it to mirror everything I do and everything I think. every defense I attempt against them, they'll try to turn against me, and always in distorted and out of context ways. their motives are never pure, and they don't seem to be aware of themselves or of their part in anything at all. if I try to be fair to them they'll immediately take advantage of this. if I act to them in a manner similar to how they act to me, this will be taken out of context and used against me, as they are not accountable to a single thing they do.
more generally now:
I always have to be reminded that they are there to target and police me, and that injustice must always prevail when committed by large numbers masked by human faces. they lie about everything, cover everything they do by lies, castrate all intergrity and all reason, but they have everything on their side. they've arranged themselves precisely at my throat, always keep me in the position of being targeted and isolated by whatever justification required, prey on the most basic existential workings and often under the masquerade of their own existential workings, and then I can't say anything about it, or if I do, they can then act 'in retribution' to myself to 'teach me a lesson'. they target me in large numbers, use every weapon of a tailored society with tailored traps against me specifically, lie about every single thing, treat me like I'm extremely famous without acknowldedging me as famous, subject me to every possible nook of equality while ensuring inequality is always at an extreme, and all this in the name of their 'justice'.

moreover, whenever I put any thought into what I'm writing, this is usually treated as vulnerability and quickly met with an increase of harassment. this harassment is at those times of a more basic and more coercive sort, and so I'm forced to confront it, and on its own level. then, my writings have suddenly shifted and I can be preyed on by large masses under whatever justification.

the pieces of shit harass me everywhere and target and police me as a society. they contribute absolutely nothing positive, but just tell me what to do all the time or else face increased harassment. they prey on me for the thoughts I'm thinking, and when I don't write constantly they increase harassment for that as well, and then they prey on me for anything I write, in large masses.

sure enough, the pieces of shit act like they know me everywhere I go, and use this to police me as a society and to become coercively involved in my life. if I ask them, they won't admit knowing who I am, but they act like they do know who I am, and they use this to police me as a society and to become coercively involved in my life. the pieces of shit that have not been treating me very well at all for many years, and now have left me for dead and shun everything I do and permit nothing in my life, always ensure to use their informal relationship with me to give themselves reasons to further target me for targeting me, or to accuse me of trying to deceive them in order to police something else, such as my movements within society. nothing is done by means of words, as that would interfere with their imperative to lie about acting like they know me everywhere and then use it against me if I mention this, but everything in my life has to be met with attacks when I encounter these nazi piece of shit impostors that even call themselves humans. everything is always soiled and must always die due to the little detail of everyone acting like they know me everywhere and becoming coercively involved in my life, and everything in my life is beyond restricted because of it, and all the freedoms I am told I have, I do not have, because of it, but why should they be obliged to even admit to knowing who I am when they can just utilize large masses against me in any way everywhere I go. they are a disease, and I wish they would die.

what is a nazi society to do when confronted by someone whose memory spans further back than a millisecond? accuse them of deception and further target them. they are not accountable to anything. they can act like they know me everywhere, use this to police me as a society, and then lie about it. there is no one to turn to. they have very large masses. it doesn't need to be consistent with statistics I receive from websites. every one of the hundreds I encounter always happens to be one of the five that visits my website.

big brother is a piece of shit that inflicts electric shocks on my genitals with very great obsession, and tells me what I am allowed to do and what I am allowed to think all the time.

big brother is a rapist piece of shit that inflicts electric shocks on specifically chosen areas of my body with ever increasing excess. I am constantly told what I am allowed to do and what I am allowed to think by means of this and various other harassments. whenever I think something I know I'm not permitted to think or do something I know I'm not permitted to do, this is immediately met with an electric shock, and this is done more and more excessively. this is in my house.
when going outside, they'll usually do that thing where they start off being nice so that I'll let down my guard in my thoughts, and then pieces of shit will become increasingly aggressive as I'm doing that. they become coercively involved in my thoughts and very strongly discourage me from going outside. they also lie about everything, while still of course acting like they know me everywhere, and so then can further target me for contradicting their lies.

there is also a distinction to be made between the reasons they provide for why I shouldn't question the world and shouldn't have freedoms, and the fact that they are just there to police me and just constantly look for these reasons, and it really doesn't matter to them what these reasons are but they'll just use whatever works best at any time, and what works best is what works best in relation to me, and so their subsequent accusations are often precisely backwards.

big brother is a rapist piece of shit that inflicts constant electric shocks to my genitals with ever increasing obsession. I am hoping that if I write about it, then maybe it will take a break or something, and that this won't be met with retributions by the nazis that attach themselves to everything I do and then enforce the truth of tailored lies while attaching themselves to everything I do and thus effectively police my life and don't allow me to acknowledge a single thing that's happening around me.

the rapist pieces of shit constantly become coercively involved in my activities inside my house. it has been decided that there will be a massive increase of involvement in my life now by the disease pieces of shit. they certainly ensure to allow nothing positive in my life. they do however lie about everything, while acting like they know me everywhere, and if I contradict their lies, when they keep pushing and pushing until I must, I also have to worry about retributions being inflicted on me next time I go outside. the virus has decided that its involvement in my life will be increased now.

the pieces of shit constantly become coercively involved and entangled in every single thing I do and think in the most useless and destructive possible ways. once the pieces of shit become involved, as they always must, everything must always die and all desire for anything must always disappear. everything must always be dead, because the pieces of shit must always become coercively involved in everything, and if they ever leave me alone it's never for very long. if I am not devoting my every moment to the pieces of shit, there will just be a massive virus invasion of every aspect of my life that will not seem to stop.

whenever it is required to increase mass-involvement in my life, they'll just reveal themselves for what they are. this means that they'll be bound neither by conscience nor shame, will team up against me, do nothing to hide the targeting and do nothing to hide that they're all there to play for the team. it's very familiar to me to be treated in these ways by things that look like people, and I'll be able to just see what's around me and will almost begin feeling like I'm permitted to see what's around me and that it's just obvious that I can be truthful about what's around me. the instant I respond to anything though, the context is immediately switched and every response is suddenly put in the context of them all being very wonderful. then they just keep repeating and repeating this. they destroy memory, they destroy integrity, they destroy confidence, they pretty much just destroy every possible thing.

and when I don't write constantly: every so often, a day will be chosen for me to come under attack. it will start off with something I'm doing privately being invaded in some big brotherly way, conditioning and psychological torture being inflicted on me as punishment for something I am doing privately or something I am thinking, or some bite being taken of me in some other way. it will be sufficient for me to see reason to respond, and as soon as I respond either I'll find out that everything has been prearranged to target me for my response, or everything will suddenly be switched to target me for my response. if I write of something big it will be diverted towards something small that will trivialize what I'm writing, and if I write of something small it will be diverted towards something big that I'm not allowed to say anything about and can get attacked by mobs for (the first instance can have similar results as well). everything will be arranged on the days chosen to target me to further target me for targeting me, for no other reason than for me to be violated and then not permitted to respond to this in any way.
I am of course only permitted to react and never to instigate the expression of an opinion without having first come under some sort of attack, because the collective is always sealed around my throat and there is not a single breath that I can take without victimizing some spy or number of spies. I am also told that I live in a democratic society. as I write this I receive electric shocks to my body.

I also receive electric shocks to specific areas of my body constantly, by big brother, who is a rapist machine. the most frustrating part though always remains the pieces of shit that call themselves humans while acting like they know me everywhere. things that look like objects often demonstrate more of a capacity to understand than those I have to encounter who call themselves humans, but I keep having to accept them as humans, and everything is there to protect them, but again and again they prove to be less capable of understanding anything than any of the things that look like objects by which I am surrounded.
I have picked today to write, because the bites have decided to increase today. whenever the pieces of shit pick a day to increase targeting, they usually set up many things simultaneously to protect everything else and allow them to further target me for targeting me. this is a general observation of the ways in which they operate. it has been decided that now there will be an increase of involvement in my life by the pieces of shit.

everything I write, only has an increasing effect, rather than a mitigating effect on the targeting of which I write, which is kind of the opposite effect than that which I hope for. at the same time I am a living thing, and when a living thing is constantly abused, this inevitably doesn't just disappear into nothing.
I am not allowed to say a single thing about a single thing that is actually happening around me, and the pieces of shit that act like they know me everywhere are there to enforce the truth of all the lies that are there to protect them. everything is there to protect everything else, and such details as everyone acting like they know me everywhere are just not treated as very important.

and if everyone has been very icy to me today, of course those that call themselves my family will just do the same. it's comforting to know that if this society had suddenly turned into a nazi society targeting me, those that call themselves my family will just participate in targeting me, as they always do and have always done. if they decide to arbitrarily lock me up, those that call themselves my family will probably be there to take their side.

I acknowledge, those I will have to encounter next time I go outside have very large numbers, and certainly are there to target me as well.

every single one of them will always overlook the way I am treated by all of them. everyone is ok with it and everyone participates in it. they always are quick to jump to each others' defense against me though, and use this to justify treating me in all the ways they've been treating me for many years anyways, during most of which I had done nothing to react and they just persisted and kept intensifying all these treatments. if I react, all it gives them is the bonus of convincing me that unlike all the years they've been treating me in these ways anyways, I've now brought it on myself.
they're a fucking disease.

the previous post was in reference to personal interactions I have with them. I don't know if there is supposed to be any relationship that I have with the collective that inflicts punishments on me everywhere I go, and seems to know how to make lots of faces as well, and act like they know me everywhere I go and seem to react and inflict retributions for details of my life everywhere I go while acting very familiarly with me.

the pieces of shit don't let me listen, speak, or think around them. they inflict punishments on me precisely when I do these things. I'm sorry that they keep insisting on this, then lie about it, and use this for further targeting when I really don't have anywhere to go, and then subject me in all their insanity to the standards of the society they feel like saying it is and use this to suck whatever life is left in me. they always single me out, team up against me, exclude me from everything, and ensure that this remains so. if I make any efforts, they will ensure to reject me. they police every single thing I do while overlooking every single method by which this is done. then they lie about every single thing and recontextualize everything I do and say according to a fictional context and use it for further targeting. then they tell me how wonderful they are and all this bullshit about the nature of the society in which I live, and they even seem to believe it themselves, even while demonstrating the falsity of what they tell me, and so obviously there is no hope with them.

and as for two of them doing the same thing: one of these wasn't regarding my earphones but was a similar thing, and they hadn't exercised this facet of their hypocrisy since the last time I wasn't devoting my every moment to the pieces of shit. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary today.
they always do the same things at the same time. sometimes I'll walk on the street and every single one of them I encounter will start rubbing up against me, and 20 of them will do it in a row, although on most days there wouldn't be physical contact with a single one of them. this makes it very difficult to describe anything, and it doesn't help that each of them is a monad-like thing that will not acknowledge anything other than its own demands. the very description I had just given will obscure my position and allow anything I say to be assimilated into it. one who is in fact in a special position is obscured by these monad-like things that crawl into every nook and every description. they are very disease-like.

also, something relatively small compared to everyone everywhere acting like they know who I am and then lying about it, my thoughts being policed, and other things. often I try to write about small things, because when I write about big things I have to get attacked by big mobs. the virus of course does not see through this, and only proceeds in exploiting it.
and so, the focus of the nazi disease society is now my senses. if they lie about everything, then if they overlook that they act like they know me everywhere I go, then they can invert everything I say against me within false contexts which they tailor for this purpose, and of course nothing will be addressed with words but met with corresponding retributions.
and so, today there have been two instances of two of them doing the same thing, and I am addressing one of them which I encountered when going outside. I always have my earphones on, because the pieces of shit have been abusing my senses and using conditioning against me and policing my thoughts by this in large masses and then lying about it. and so now, the music on my earphones, which are not the large kind but the kind that go inside your ear, infringes on one of these pieces of shit who tells me to put it down, which is a funny context to be used when my thoughts are being policed by these nazi pieces of shit by the abuse of my senses. and so now, these pieces of shit that don't even have senses, must be treated as having senses so delicate that they must infringe on what has already been infringed within the contours of my body, and at a timing when it seems to come across as a retribution for things I have written. moreover, and this is a pretty big thing: the pieces of shit police my thoughts. if they lie about it, they can project all their pettiness onto me within a false context, while overlooking that they act like they know me everywhere.
I have written in detail about something. I do not have any obligation to now keep writing in detail, if there so happens to next occur something that I don't want to write in detail about. and the reason why I write about relatively small things is because I am being targeted by society and am not permitted to question society without having to endure punishments everywhere I go, and I try to preserve my willingness to endure punishments for times when I may want to exercise it.
moreover, if I don't react in any way to the nazi pieces of shit that are quite set on targeting me as a society no matter what, they will be quick to reveal themselves in all their nazi monstrosity. being targeted by society is not something one will be permitted to remain silent about for very long, and the instant I react to the targeting, immediately everything they have been doing up to that point is erased from the collective memory, and every reaction of mine is put in the context of them being all the wonderful things they happen to feel like calling themselves, who also all happen to conveninetly know me everywhere I go and then lie about it.
fucking nazi disease society.

I went outside today. as expected, I was out of favour with the pieces of shit that police me as a society. as always, they use their informal relationship with me to police my life, although as always they don't feel obliged to mention to me that I'm famous, and in fact will deny knowing who I am if I ask them, although they inflict retributions on me for details of my life no matter where I go. nazi pieces of shit.
if there is something of a realization that the bullshit hypocritical morality of the society they will all say it is and corroborate each other and which they use to police me doesn't mean shit when they police my thoughts, torture my senses, team up against me as a society, spy on my life, and lie about everything, they may prefer to police me by more direct methods, where their hypocrisy cannot be disguised in any way, and instill fear in me by reminding me that underneath the facade they are just a bunch of nazi cops, and will use this to try to make me as self-conscious as possible, and once that's done they can begin lining up the hypocritical pieces of shit with whom I am now very out of favour, as being in favour with them is something that fleets the instant you're not devoting your every moment to them or have used profanity. the use of profanity is not treated lightly by the nazi pieces of shit that police and target me as a society, spy on my life, lie about every single thing, and police my thoughts.
what a fucking disease of a society this is. I wish they would die.

the rapist pieces of shit become coercively involved in my every activity and do not let me use my senses or to think. I am now reacting specifically to torture and conditioning by means of personalized advertisements, but I acknowledge that all pieces of shit and all facets of the big-brother-society are the same and are there to work as a team against me, and will all do the same, and constantly do. they also do many other things, but when I don't devote my every moment to them they just revert to the relentless policing of my thoughts and activities by torture, and can do so directly without need for extensive mind-rape. I wish this disease nazi society that just completely overlooks the fact that it is targeting me and doing nothing else would die.

the pieces of shit constantly become coercively involved in everything I do by the infliction of torture.

the pieces of shit constantly police my thoughts by means of torture, and there is no way to think or to be alive in any way when the pieces of shit are around. they also police everything else I do, and constantly remind me that they are there for no other reason than to police me.

the rapist pieces of shit involve themselves in my thoughts and police my thoughts by means of relentless torture, as well as become coercively involved in every single thing I do.

the pieces of shit target and police me as a society.

although every single thing I write is just overlooked, my every word is given tremendous power when it is required to not allow me to be in public or walk on the street. when I stop writing, the pieces of shit keep avenging themselves on me until I must resume. when I do write, I am not entitled to freedom of speech, because the pieces of shit are fixated in masses on me and every single thing I write is just an attempt to deceive them. if there is something that the pieces of shit lie about, which is just about every single thing, then if I'm honest about it this is an attempt to deceive the pieces of shit, who are fixated in great masses on me and act like they know me everywhere without being able to admit to it. they also use it against me if I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere.
it seems one is not entitled to any freedoms when large amounts of pieces of shit are fixated on one's every move.

moreover, because they lie about everything, then because they are fixated in masses on my every move, then it greatly infringes on them if I mention anything about them policing my thoughts, and can justify punishments next time I go outside, although I can be quite sure that no one will comment on anything I have written and no one will actually admit knowing who I am. it seems that what they want to do, is to police me and to inflict punishments. anyone I talk to will certainly still deny that anyone in the public knows who I am, while everyone in the public will persist in acting like they know who I am but will not be obliged to provide any explanations: I am the one being targeted, and so I am the one that has to provide explanations, or suffer consequences if I don't. no one will ask me for explanations, but punishments will be inflicted on me if I don't provide them.

whenever I stop writing, the pieces of shit keep avenging themselves and avenging themselves on me for whatever I had written most recently. when walking on the street, if my thoughts are guarded, the pieces of shit will keep picking and picking at my thoughts until my guard is down, and as soon as my guard is down the pieces of shit begin avenging themselves on me for my thoughts, policing my thoughts by psychological torture, or avenging themselves on me in reaction to whatever I have written most recently, but in correspondence to the thoughts I am thinking. if indeed nothing I say is taken very seriously, then why is my every word treated as a tremendous threat to the parasitic collective? everything in my life must be heavily policed, and no other logic seems to be relevant other than what fulfills the requirement to heavily police every single thing in my life. I wish I could go outside without the streets being filled with this A.I. humanoid disease, and I wish I could acknowledge the disease as disease without having to be attacked by mobs of disease.
anything I try to do that's in any way positive, will absolutely not be allowed, will be shunned, will be forbidden, or will be relentlessly eaten at until all desire for it disappears. the pieces of shit ensure to preserve my position of having nowhere to go, nothing I'm permitted to do, being singled out and in the spotlight, being isolated but permitted no privacy, and anything else that's required for them to best collectively prey on me and to keep taking away freedom after freedom from me, while I just have to accept all their double-standards and lapses of logic, because they have great numbers, great force, endless weapons, are set on targeting me no matter what, are everyone and everywhere, and leave me nowhere to go and allow no defenses against them.

the pieces of shit become coercively involved in my thoughts and in the process of me walking on the street, and they seem to know who I am and what I look like everywhere I go. every single thing in my life is put in the context of large amounts of pieces of shit being fixated on it, and so every single thing in my life is extremely restricted. all the freedoms I am told I have, I do not have, because the pieces of shit attach themselves in masses to every single thing in my life. anyone I talk to will deny that anyone in this society even knows who I am, will overlook anything and make excuses for anyone, will notice every reaction of mine and put it in some fictional context, and will use it against me that honesty about my surroundings is so arranged to be the easiest thing for idiots to dismiss, ridicule, and use for further targeting.

the pieces of shit involve themselves coercively in every detail of my life, allow me absolutely no private life, do not permit anything positive in my life, and police everything I do.

I am permitted no privacy inside my house and my thoughts and activities are constantly policed by sensory torture inside my house. these things are able to stop for long periods of time, and they swiftly return whenever I am not devoting my every moment to the pieces of shit. if I do anything privately in my life, I will not be permitted to, and my privacy will be invaded no matter where I am by the abuse of my senses which nowhere is unable to reach me.
when I go outside, the pieces of shit become coercively involved in my thoughts and in the process of me walking on the street. if I let down my guard in any way, quickly a piece of shit will be there to take advantage of this.
anyone I talk to is another idiot that will deny every single thing happening in my life and will use the weapons provided against me.
I don't like writing publicly, because all this enables is plenty of mind-rape and censorship by punishments, and so I must be forced to write when I don't feel like writing and invaded in every aspect of my life until I do. if I am now in favour with the pieces of shit, the pieces of shit will now 'want' to permit me freedoms, and so will use any amount of coercion and torture to force me to write when I don't feel like writing, because now they are not interested in censoring me, they're only interested in censoring me when I write anything. now they're ready to inflict any amount of punishments to permit me the freedom to write when I don't want to and to force me to write, and nowhere will I be able to escape the torture and invasion.

then I am in the public realm. this further interferes with me being able to go outside. those I will encounter in human form will dismiss the invasions taking place when I am inside my house, and will use this to make it very difficult for me to walk on the street. they also make it very difficult to walk on the street in very many other ways, including taking advantage of the thoughts I am thinking in brutal ways.
as it is, as long as I am not permitted freedom of speech and must endure punishments by masses for my every word, I am not very interested in writing at all, and so the parasite-collective will force me to, whether I go outside, am in my house, or talk to any of them and immediately am made to feel the need to find someone else with the capacity to understand. but there is no one else. everyone I encounter is just there to exploit me. there is no one to whom I need to present evidence, as they will overlook any evidence and will work for the team and allow nothing to interfere. there is no one to whom I need to explain anything. if I don't, this will be exploited. if I don't write at all, the invasions will know no limits, the abuse of my senses and my body will know no limits, and I will be forced to write publicly, where I can be exploited in more ways.
as I write this, the electric shocks to my body return.
the humanoid virus is just there to prey, and absolutely nothing else.

the pieces of shit police and target me as a society. everywhere I go they all act like they know me. anyone I talk to will tell me that no one in the public knows me and will subject me to the standards of some society which is not this one. they police my thoughts, they do not allow me any privacy, and they increase harassment whenever I don't devote my every moment to them. if I devote my every moment to them, this will be exploited in every way. if I don't devote my every moment to them, I will be forced to. I can't go anywhere whatsoever without being targeted, and everyone acts like they know me everywhere, although it is used against me if I mention anything about everyone acting like they know me everywhere. I am living in a 1984 police state, and the things walking around calling themselves humans, are not able to see or understand, but are there to police and nothing else.

the invasion of my privacy and the policing of my every thought and movement inside my house keep increasing and increasing. I try to write privately about it, as writing is something one must constantly do when never left alone for a second, and am again reminded that I am not permitted to do anything privately in my life. it will be used against me in every possible way that I have chosen to write publicly, but it seems every time I don't I am not permitted to do otherwise, as those targeting you will ensure to always keep you in the public realm, because this allows for the maximum possible amount of exploitation. the abuse of my body and my senses in correspondence to things I do and think inside my house know absolutely no limits when it is required to force me to the public realm, where I can be exploited in very many ways. as it is, there is not much I am really permitted to say in the public realm. I have also received a phone call a few minutes ago from someone, and what I am writing now is not a reference to that phone call.

on this website the advertisements are visible only to me, and are used for abusive purposes as well.

the electric shocks to my genitals keep intensifying and intensifying until I write about it. once I write about it, I am in the public realm, and can be exploited from every direction with reduced ability to notice that I am being targeted by society, because I am now in the public realm and this is a semi-justification for society to target me. I also wish those targeting me in human form will occasionally notice the way I am being abused by advertisements for example, on wordpress for example, in very personal ways, visible in the public realm.

tomorrow I have to go outside. I think mind-rape will be very intense. sometimes I wish I could just be alive, but then I am reminded that the pieces of shit police me and target me as a society and everywhere I go they are all the fucking same and all target me.

and I've noticed I can't make such statements as 'when they're around I want to stab out my ears', or 'when they're around all I can do is shut myself off and die'. I acknowledge what they are (idiotic computer simulation herd), but this is the fascism under which I am living.

I constantly receive electric shocks to my body. there is nothing I can do other than write about it. I am not obliging anyone to care, and would prefer if they didn't become involved in my life in any way, and certainly not regarding this.

I'm being harassed constantly by big brother as well.

the pieces of shit police me as a society. they don't admit knowing who I am, but they act like they do know who I am. they inflict retributions on me for details of my life. they are not obliged to admit knowing who I am, and in fact deny knowing who I am, but they very much act like they do know who I am, and whenever my thoughts infringe on them are obliged to assert their right to harass me in rebellion to my thoughts and penalize me in other ways, which is very much acting like they do know who I am. whenever I go outside I have to suffer the consequences of everyone everywhere knowing who I am, and certainly whenever there is something in my life that needs to be, not policed, but met with personalized rebellion by the population against me, who happens to know who I am everywhere I go without recognizing me as possessive of any fame or authority and in fact shunning me and draining my life, within the bounds of the legal rights of each and every one of them, while each and every one of them happens to choose to pick on me and happens to know who I am without admitting to this, this is done every time.

I constantly receive electric shocks to my body. in a few days I will run out of cigarettes and have to go outside.

and now it's back to my writings being used for purposes of conditioning and harassment by big brother. I acknowledge: those I will have to encounter next time I go outside do not care, and are there to target me along with big brother.

and whenever I am out of favour with the community, the community will not permit me to speak calmly about anything. this is one of the many protective measures the community must take against an individual designated as a threat to the community, and enables the community to more effectively eliminate any threat by the individual.

every thought that I think is met with drastic consequences, and I must at all times be extremely careful in what thoughts I can think. when I am alone in my house I must watch my every thought very carefully because my thoughts will be met with drastic consequences next time I go outside. I am now not speaking of thoughts that I express, but of thoughts that I merely think. if I mention this I can be brutally penalized everywhere I go under the pretext of trying to deceive them. I don't oblige anyone to trust me, but there is never a single instance of anything whatsoever in my life that does not go avenged or exploited, and it doesn't matter where I go because everyone is the same everywhere and everyone acts like they know me everywhere.

and of course I am still being shunned, which seems to have been obscured during the course of the latest clampdown. they never fail to police and exploit every single thing in my life, but they can just completely shun anything I try to do with my life that's positive. if I even mention money they'll tell me I don't need it, as it is understood that I am in a special position of being targeted by society and that while they can have money I 'don't need it'. likewise, it's understood that I cannot have many freedoms at all, am not welcome in any public places, cannot do anything with my life, cannot have any privacy, cannot be permitted to think, cannot take an interest in political matters or anything else, and just about every other freedom I am told I have I do not have.
I write this, and so must consider the public I will have to encounter, and acknowledge that they will just have the same opinion.

everywhere I go the pieces of shit team up against me, harass me, and treat me in any way they please. I mostly try to protect my senses against them and to get from point A to point B, but if I write about it this greatly infringes on them and they are now obliged to assert in masses their right to treat me in these ways. if I briefly go outside, which I don't do very often, they will busy themselves punishing me for details of my life on which they spy. they act like they know who I am and use it against me if I mention that they act like they know who I am and also use it against me that they act like they know who I am. they come in the name of democracy, and they target me as a society.

they've been policing my thoughts and my senses by means of relentless torture for very many years, and using this to intentionally cripple every aspect of my life at all times, and not permitting me to react lest they further single me out and converge on me. they did not allow me to ignore for an instant that they were doing it on purpose, and would take brutal advantage of my thoughts whenever I would make any excuses for them so that I would be able to have any temporary peace of mind, and they did not allow me to ignore for an instant that they were policing my thoughts and torturing my senses in correspondence to my thoughts, and would take advantage of my every effort to block them out in any way. they would not permit me to close my eyes or blur my vision around them, and they would not permit me to block my ears around them. everywhere I would go they would act like they know me and know every detail of my life, and would police my life by means of their great numbers and in the names of anything they could. they never left me alone for a second, and any time I misinterpreted this as an attempt by them at being friendly, they would coldly reject me, team up against me, and humiliate me in large groups. then they would deny every single thing happening around me, corroborate each other, and subject my every breath to the standards of some society which is not this society. they would unanimously overlook every single thing happening around me, would notice every single reaction of mine, and would use this to team up against me as well, and anything else they could. they would always keep me in the spotlight no matter how much effort I had made to be private, and would use the spotlight for every kind of manipulation, every kind of distortion of truth, every possible distortion of perspective, and every type of targeting and exploitation that can be accomplished by large protected numbers against an individual always kept in the spotlight without of course ever being recognized as possessive of any sort of authority or fame, and usually labeled a misfit, criminal, or mentally ill. the latter labels have of course expanded in many ways, but other than that much of the above persists just the same.
and so now I can't say anything about any of this, because this infringes on those who have been treating me in these ways for many years, and all act like they know me everywhere I go, and keep treating me in all the same ways, and now gives the community an excuse to 'protect itself against me', when I rarely go outside of my house and certainly never even come close to exercising any of the freedoms I see others exercising, and to avenge themselves on me in all the same ways and in large numbers for any interference on my part with them policing everything I do.

the logic of the reverse-panopticon is to target an individual who is always kept in the spotlight from every direction while everyone works as a team against the individual and everyone is there to protect everyone else, other than the individual being targeted. the types of targeting are determined by this setup. of course one always kept in the spotlight is made to feel an obligation to always be truthful, against their own interests, because the lights are fixed on his every move while those surrounding him who tell only lies are made obscure and are permitted any double-standards because of this. of course one is constantly accused by these prison-guards precisely of being deceptive, and can suffer punishments for even uttering such a statement as 'one is made to feel an obligation to always be truthful'. there are very many things that the prison-guards can accuse the prisoner of but not the other way around, due to the requirement for constant demoralization of the prisoner, although very often these accusations are more accurate backwards. the prisoner is not permitted to express himself very well, as he can rarely get through a sentence without uttering some profanity because otherwise this will be interpreted as a vulnerability by the prison-guards, and is also very limited by the prison-guards in the ideas he is permitted to express, as all eyes are at all times on his every move and any uncareful step is quickly met with punishments no matter where the prisoner goes. this makes the prisoner also appear as vulgar, which of course works to the benefit of demoralization of the prisoner which the prison-guards exploit.
the types of targeting are tailored to the prisoner and to the spotlight. if manipulation can make any defenses by the prisoner appear inverted to the prisoner, this is a very effective method of personalized demoralization, as everything the prisoner holds in high esteem will be made to appear to the prisoner as inverted against them, which is accomplished by means of manipulation and the flexible and arbitrary use of any and every context. if the prisoner uses any context that is borrowed, this will only be exploited, as the prisoner is the only one in the spotlight, and so the prisoner can be violated precisely according to the context they are using, and then any reaction by the prisoner will allow the prison-guards to accuse the prisoner of exploiting this context. and so, the prisoner cannot use any borrowed contexts, while the prison-guards are permitted to use any borrowed contexts they wish, and the prisoner is not permitted to be playful, humorous, or to do anything other than be very straightforward all the time, which makes it easier to accuse the prisoner of being deceptive and of hiding their deceptions precisely in this way. the prisoner is also not permitted to speak calmly, as this will be treated as a vulnerability by the prison-guards. and any logical arguments of course don't impress the prison-guards much.
the war is extremely elaborate and was waged against the prisoner long before the prisoner was ever aware that there is a war. I don't give a shit about anyone trusting me or not, I just don't have anything better to do right now than write about my life.

as I write this I receive electric shocks to my body. there will be no comments on this post, as is my best guess, but in a few days I will have to go outside and receive penalties for it. or maybe I'll be in favour with them again, which means I'll have to feel obligations to them again, which happens whenever I don't give a shit about them anymore, and then when I feel obligations to them again they turn into assholes again.